wh0r3

fuck...

i'm confused. well, maybe confused isnt the best word. scatterbrained, perhaps? i dunno, this whole "quitting smoking" gig sucks. i spazz out for no reason at any given time of the day, and its only been 36 hrs... maybe i need a patch or some shit. part of me knows i need help with this and part of me says "fuck that, you're stronger than this, pussy!" what to do...

i need social interaction. badly. i really like cincinnati, except that i'm still rather lonely here. need to meet some cool people, and soon. or i'll really go crazy. i feel that, subconciously, this may be the reason that i even write half this shit. in dire hopes that someone will stumble upon my page at random. if only...

the solitude is killing me. oh, and i need to get laid. not a top priority, but damn if it wouldnt be nice... i made a pass at a coworker today. she laughed at me. i dunno if its because she thought i was kidding or if i'm really just that pathetic. i really hope its not the latter. i heard her make a side comment to a colleague, something along the lines of, "he gets enough booty as it is". i wanna know who the fuck her source is, cuz she's so far from the truth, it hurts...

somebody find me.