After being a fan of suicide girls, not just because of the beautiful models, but also because of what it stands for I have decided to finally end my subscription. Ive thought about it for a while and have concluded that the reason that I have kept my subscription is not the same reason that I originally made it. Originally I subscribed to suicide girls because it seemed like an open and inviting place to express my non vanilla self and witness others expressing that which was within themselves as well. And it was comfortable. As the years have gone by tho I have noticed that that is no longer the reason why I am here. I have not made friends, I have known learned or grown internally, and altogether I have not gained anything from my subscription other than a beautiful view and some beautiful models. I dont blame SG for any of that, if anything it is probably my fault for not socializing enough (something that I have always struggled with personally) but I no longer feel like this is a safe and comfortable place to express my deeper, slightly nuanced feelings or 'fetishes' for lack of better words.