Everyone wish me luck tonight....
I need some sort of sign that things are sort of looking up for me. That I have turned the corner and headed down the right path. So when I go on my walk in just a few min I am going to get my usual, which tonight is going to be Corona (since I am cutting down on my drinking) and then I am going to pick up like a five doller scratcher, and if I win something from it then I know my luck has changed and those stars I used to wish on are no longer crossed at me, and hopeful I can make them smile some.
Tomorrow I have another 1-9:30 or 1-8:30. Its going to be a long shift, but tomorrow is pay day and it might be interesting too cause that girl Katie who starts the drama will be there. It will deffiently be a shift for the books which speaking of books, I have finished reading Memory which always just makes me go why in the world am I reading this. It's going to make me miss having him around all the time, it has been really crazy cause his girlfriend has been really friendly with me on myspace as of lately, I know I want to be back in their lives but are they ready to let me in.
You know I have been single for like 3 years....dare I even go into that jazz.
In other news I am starting to gather up ideas for my novella (yea I was inspired reading my friends). I have some really interesting situations that I think will make people think. I was washing dishes tonight and I am like there are three sinks here, but the last time I was using three sinks I was developing pictures, and instead of bleech on my hands I had photo chemicals and though it smelled bad at lest I was doing something I loved and now I dont have time to be artistic. I just thought it was a clever way to descibe going from doing something you loved to doing something that just gets you buy. I was also thinking about how at work I put up the chairs when I am ready to give off the impression that we are closed and I dont want to deal with people any more. I think we do that with our emotions we put up our guards as a sign to say we are closed off to letting in new people cause we dont want to deal with it any more. Another sort of sad thing that I might include is this old man came in the other day and was waiting for some one one and they never showed so he left them a note and I kept it there all night and no one came in and read it and I thought it was kind of sad....
So hopefully I will start that soon
I need some sort of sign that things are sort of looking up for me. That I have turned the corner and headed down the right path. So when I go on my walk in just a few min I am going to get my usual, which tonight is going to be Corona (since I am cutting down on my drinking) and then I am going to pick up like a five doller scratcher, and if I win something from it then I know my luck has changed and those stars I used to wish on are no longer crossed at me, and hopeful I can make them smile some.
Tomorrow I have another 1-9:30 or 1-8:30. Its going to be a long shift, but tomorrow is pay day and it might be interesting too cause that girl Katie who starts the drama will be there. It will deffiently be a shift for the books which speaking of books, I have finished reading Memory which always just makes me go why in the world am I reading this. It's going to make me miss having him around all the time, it has been really crazy cause his girlfriend has been really friendly with me on myspace as of lately, I know I want to be back in their lives but are they ready to let me in.
You know I have been single for like 3 years....dare I even go into that jazz.
In other news I am starting to gather up ideas for my novella (yea I was inspired reading my friends). I have some really interesting situations that I think will make people think. I was washing dishes tonight and I am like there are three sinks here, but the last time I was using three sinks I was developing pictures, and instead of bleech on my hands I had photo chemicals and though it smelled bad at lest I was doing something I loved and now I dont have time to be artistic. I just thought it was a clever way to descibe going from doing something you loved to doing something that just gets you buy. I was also thinking about how at work I put up the chairs when I am ready to give off the impression that we are closed and I dont want to deal with people any more. I think we do that with our emotions we put up our guards as a sign to say we are closed off to letting in new people cause we dont want to deal with it any more. Another sort of sad thing that I might include is this old man came in the other day and was waiting for some one one and they never showed so he left them a note and I kept it there all night and no one came in and read it and I thought it was kind of sad....
So hopefully I will start that soon
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things will look up eventually...