A Note From the Editor
Even when changes are good, they scare me.
Help Wanted, Help Received
Im finally getting some help. My dad came across my last blog on MySpace, and we had a lengthy discussion about how things are, and what we should try and do about it. It is no surprise to me that my dad checks my sites, since that is not a hidden fact in this household. But, Ive never let that censor or in anyway alter what I write here. I write what I feel, what I think, and as sad as this is to say, this has been my most effective form of venting. Well, Im glad that my parents came across that last post.
Im looking forward to how things are going. I have two appointments to talk to professionals. While I am not thrilled that I will have to actually talk (I could write endlessly, but make me talk and I can barely create a sentence), I am thrilled at what may come from the talking. It should be good to just be able to say whatever I want to someone that has no connection to me and just get things off of my chest. This is my first time doing such a thing, so that is why I have multiple appointmentsRight now we are just trying to find someone I am comfortable with.
Aside from that, we also talked about making a few lifestyle changes. The first is my diet. Im not actually going on a diet, rather Im just going to start eating healthier. I have a horrible time with eatingI simply dont want to eat anything except for dinner. So, that is the first thing I need to alterActually eating three, or at least two meals per day. I did well today and ate three. My breakfast was a not so healthy, healthy dish of a sliced nectarine, grapes, and a large glass of orange juice. What was unhealthy about that you ask? Well, I had to spice things up, so I sprinkled sugar on the slices and drizzled honey over them
Nice little energy boost to start the day lol 
Doesnt that just look tasty? Oh and I should mention that this little breakfast meal was eaten at the crack of dawn! That is, if dawn occurred at 1:45PM lolYea, I like to sleep in. I had a picture of me eating in my pajamas still, but it came out super blurry, so I trashed it
We are going to try and make a trip to Trader Joes this weekend and pick up some tasty, healthy foods and snacks for me. Anyway, eating is a really important thing for me because aside from making me feel more energetic and so on, I also tend to lose a lot of weight when Im sick. To give you an idea, Ive lost ten pounds since my last doctors appointment, and that was a week and a half ago or so?
The next change is my parents cure for everything: getting out of the house. This one is a bit harder because when I wake up feeling sick, I just want to stay in and not go anywhere. But with school coming up and all that good stuff, I hope getting out of the house will become an easier task.
So things are starting to change in my life. They are certainly changes for the better, but as always, change scares me. Being sick and being in pain (Both physically and mentally) has become normal for me. They are a part of my life, and it is going to be difficult to try and lessen their roles.
Out of Left Field
I smashed my knee against my bedpost this evening and it still hurts pretty bad It left a nice little red bump, which would have been much worse had I not iced it right after I noticed the swelling. Yes, I hit it that hard. Serves me right for not paying attention I suppose
The Art Scene
Well, I didnt make it to Billys on Tuesday. I ended up having a nosebleed the night before, so my face was hurting something fierce. Ive lost count of how many nosebleeds that makestwelve? Thirteen? Fourteen? One of those. Hopefully nothing else will come up and Ill be able to make it to next weeks class.
I know I said I would try to get my Wonder Woman piece in this update, but I have been slacking majorly. So, here is a work in progress shot of it.
Im not sure if you can see it, but I so screwed up the nose lolThink Ill have to make a trip to pick up some pro white this weekend so I can redo it.
Music
Ok, Ive been slacking in getting through my playlist as well. What can I say, Im addicted to Boys Night Out right nowThis is like the fourth day in a row that Ive listened to them nonstop. But, here are a few lines I did pick up:
If you were to ask me, how long Ive been running for, I dont even think that I could answer, I just dont know anymore Boys Night Out
Between halfway living and halfway lying. And I know all the awful things that no one needs to know. I take my medicine and make them believe that Im a better man Boys Night Out
The Wrap-Up
Send me some good vibes people! Im hoping that things will keep moving forward and that I can overcome some of these things that have been hampering my life Hope you all are doing well.
-Weston
Current Mood: Hopeful
Currently Listening to: "Healing Boys Night Out
Currently watching: Well, not quite "currently watching," but I can't get enough of: Smallville, Miami Ink, Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends, Made, True Life
Currently Playing: Counter-Strike: Source ([p]X | Phoenix, [p]X | Suckimus Maximus, or [p]X | Beware the Kha'ak), World of Warcraft (PXAnime on Kel'Thuzad, Sandtiger on Akama), Battlefield 2 (=Superman=KalEl or =PXConqueror=), Warcraft III (PX_Conqueror)
Currently Reading: A Farewell to Arms by Ernest Hemingway
Sites: Art MySpace Xanga SuicideGirls
GaiaOnline Last.FM
Even when changes are good, they scare me.
Help Wanted, Help Received
Im finally getting some help. My dad came across my last blog on MySpace, and we had a lengthy discussion about how things are, and what we should try and do about it. It is no surprise to me that my dad checks my sites, since that is not a hidden fact in this household. But, Ive never let that censor or in anyway alter what I write here. I write what I feel, what I think, and as sad as this is to say, this has been my most effective form of venting. Well, Im glad that my parents came across that last post.
Im looking forward to how things are going. I have two appointments to talk to professionals. While I am not thrilled that I will have to actually talk (I could write endlessly, but make me talk and I can barely create a sentence), I am thrilled at what may come from the talking. It should be good to just be able to say whatever I want to someone that has no connection to me and just get things off of my chest. This is my first time doing such a thing, so that is why I have multiple appointmentsRight now we are just trying to find someone I am comfortable with.
Aside from that, we also talked about making a few lifestyle changes. The first is my diet. Im not actually going on a diet, rather Im just going to start eating healthier. I have a horrible time with eatingI simply dont want to eat anything except for dinner. So, that is the first thing I need to alterActually eating three, or at least two meals per day. I did well today and ate three. My breakfast was a not so healthy, healthy dish of a sliced nectarine, grapes, and a large glass of orange juice. What was unhealthy about that you ask? Well, I had to spice things up, so I sprinkled sugar on the slices and drizzled honey over them
Nice little energy boost to start the day lol
Doesnt that just look tasty? Oh and I should mention that this little breakfast meal was eaten at the crack of dawn! That is, if dawn occurred at 1:45PM lolYea, I like to sleep in. I had a picture of me eating in my pajamas still, but it came out super blurry, so I trashed it
We are going to try and make a trip to Trader Joes this weekend and pick up some tasty, healthy foods and snacks for me. Anyway, eating is a really important thing for me because aside from making me feel more energetic and so on, I also tend to lose a lot of weight when Im sick. To give you an idea, Ive lost ten pounds since my last doctors appointment, and that was a week and a half ago or so?
The next change is my parents cure for everything: getting out of the house. This one is a bit harder because when I wake up feeling sick, I just want to stay in and not go anywhere. But with school coming up and all that good stuff, I hope getting out of the house will become an easier task.
So things are starting to change in my life. They are certainly changes for the better, but as always, change scares me. Being sick and being in pain (Both physically and mentally) has become normal for me. They are a part of my life, and it is going to be difficult to try and lessen their roles.
Out of Left Field
I smashed my knee against my bedpost this evening and it still hurts pretty bad
It left a nice little red bump, which would have been much worse had I not iced it right after I noticed the swelling. Yes, I hit it that hard. Serves me right for not paying attention I suppose
The Art Scene
Well, I didnt make it to Billys on Tuesday. I ended up having a nosebleed the night before, so my face was hurting something fierce. Ive lost count of how many nosebleeds that makestwelve? Thirteen? Fourteen? One of those. Hopefully nothing else will come up and Ill be able to make it to next weeks class.
I know I said I would try to get my Wonder Woman piece in this update, but I have been slacking majorly. So, here is a work in progress shot of it.
Im not sure if you can see it, but I so screwed up the nose lolThink Ill have to make a trip to pick up some pro white this weekend so I can redo it.
Music
Ok, Ive been slacking in getting through my playlist as well. What can I say, Im addicted to Boys Night Out right nowThis is like the fourth day in a row that Ive listened to them nonstop. But, here are a few lines I did pick up:
If you were to ask me, how long Ive been running for, I dont even think that I could answer, I just dont know anymore Boys Night Out
Between halfway living and halfway lying. And I know all the awful things that no one needs to know. I take my medicine and make them believe that Im a better man Boys Night Out
The Wrap-Up
Send me some good vibes people! Im hoping that things will keep moving forward and that I can overcome some of these things that have been hampering my life
Hope you all are doing well.
-Weston
Current Mood: Hopeful
Currently Listening to: "Healing Boys Night Out
Currently watching: Well, not quite "currently watching," but I can't get enough of: Smallville, Miami Ink, Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends, Made, True Life
Currently Playing: Counter-Strike: Source ([p]X | Phoenix, [p]X | Suckimus Maximus, or [p]X | Beware the Kha'ak), World of Warcraft (PXAnime on Kel'Thuzad, Sandtiger on Akama), Battlefield 2 (=Superman=KalEl or =PXConqueror=), Warcraft III (PX_Conqueror)
Currently Reading: A Farewell to Arms by Ernest Hemingway
Sites: Art MySpace Xanga SuicideGirls
GaiaOnline Last.FM
also, good luck with finding someone to talk to. i hope everything works out for the best