I suppose I should eventually blog about my trip through europe right?
but I'm just plain exhausted and I've been home a week already.
I've been in the hospital 4 times in the past 4 weeks the first 3 times in europe and being dismissed with "food poisoning" Saturday night i went to my local hospital and I asked them to really look into things because it would be plain impossible for me to have food poisoning 4 fucking times and I made my food that night anyway. They found out what had been causing my intense pain and me to be vomiting violently. I currently have multiple kidney stones. I've had them back in middle school and high school but never multiple. What causes mine is calcium because i love milk and drink a lot of it. I also eat lots of pizza and bacon cheddar fries!! Needless to say I've felt like total shit since saturday I feel horrible when i eat I feel horrible when i drive anywhere. So i've been hanging out at home slaying diablos minions and I'm enjoying my alone time but I don't like to feel paralyzed either. I've also lost weight and I'm and incredibly thin guy so its weight i couldn't afford to lose and that's got me very stressed. It's left me with no energy and I just want to get back to normal which is thin but not this fucking thin.
I know I've said this before but I think I'm pretty serious about this now. I'm leaving the site when my account expires in july not because i have anything against it. I just need to be out doing things and experiencing life and this isn't helping me do that. There was a time when it did and I used it to meet many great people but as time goes on I'm just developing friendships with phantoms. As much as I've enjoyed my solitude I care far too much about people and can't continue to invest energy that I do not have into people I may never even meet. I need human interaction in its true form not through artificial means. I'm not saying that anyone that enjoys this is wrong or anything like that. I've just been spending time communicating with people via the inter webs for about 13 years now and when I actually get out and into the world and interact with people I enjoy it much more. And I'm just not getting that any longer here. The people I've grown to know and care for have my number or I theirs and I will continue to hold those relationships dear and let them develop. But like I said i can't keep investing energy into people that might not invest it back and I don't expect them to this is the internet. A place where it is perfectly acceptable to ignore someone and I just think thats shitty. And the amount of people that are willing to just ask strangers for money and gifts kind of irritates me. I don't understand it and I'm not saying its wrong but I don't roll that way so it bothers me.
At the end of the day I wish you all well!
and I've loved my time here <3
but I'm just plain exhausted and I've been home a week already.
I've been in the hospital 4 times in the past 4 weeks the first 3 times in europe and being dismissed with "food poisoning" Saturday night i went to my local hospital and I asked them to really look into things because it would be plain impossible for me to have food poisoning 4 fucking times and I made my food that night anyway. They found out what had been causing my intense pain and me to be vomiting violently. I currently have multiple kidney stones. I've had them back in middle school and high school but never multiple. What causes mine is calcium because i love milk and drink a lot of it. I also eat lots of pizza and bacon cheddar fries!! Needless to say I've felt like total shit since saturday I feel horrible when i eat I feel horrible when i drive anywhere. So i've been hanging out at home slaying diablos minions and I'm enjoying my alone time but I don't like to feel paralyzed either. I've also lost weight and I'm and incredibly thin guy so its weight i couldn't afford to lose and that's got me very stressed. It's left me with no energy and I just want to get back to normal which is thin but not this fucking thin.
I know I've said this before but I think I'm pretty serious about this now. I'm leaving the site when my account expires in july not because i have anything against it. I just need to be out doing things and experiencing life and this isn't helping me do that. There was a time when it did and I used it to meet many great people but as time goes on I'm just developing friendships with phantoms. As much as I've enjoyed my solitude I care far too much about people and can't continue to invest energy that I do not have into people I may never even meet. I need human interaction in its true form not through artificial means. I'm not saying that anyone that enjoys this is wrong or anything like that. I've just been spending time communicating with people via the inter webs for about 13 years now and when I actually get out and into the world and interact with people I enjoy it much more. And I'm just not getting that any longer here. The people I've grown to know and care for have my number or I theirs and I will continue to hold those relationships dear and let them develop. But like I said i can't keep investing energy into people that might not invest it back and I don't expect them to this is the internet. A place where it is perfectly acceptable to ignore someone and I just think thats shitty. And the amount of people that are willing to just ask strangers for money and gifts kind of irritates me. I don't understand it and I'm not saying its wrong but I don't roll that way so it bothers me.
At the end of the day I wish you all well!
and I've loved my time here <3
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thanatogenous:
Thanks for the comment on my blog. It feels good knowing someone else out there cares about other people and that I'm not alone. I wish you the best of luck with your struggles and surviving in this strange and cruel world.
tinkk:
Well not yet. I'm still training to beat you up before you beat me up!!!!!! Bring it brah!
