wendylynn

Interesting weekend. I meet friends in a bar I havent seen since high school. We end up going to her house with 3 out of towners in tow. Plus another of her friends from back in the day. End up completely wasted. There was some crazy idea that 5 guys and 2 girls was a great idea. Im thinking no on 2 of the guys. Maybe on one. Yeah on the other 2. M is so fucking funny I cant take it. I laugh all night. Grateful to be in close prox with someone I am feeling for once instead of just that unfortunate postion of having the option and not wanting to take advantage of it. Or wanting the option and not having it. We eventually got ran out of there though because it was late (whatever....) So tonight I get a call that my presence is requested by one of the out of towners at my high school friends house. I decline but am honored. I love meeting new people. Is it bad that the dude from last Thurs saw me, said he met me 2 weeks ago and I said "Im sorry, are you sure? I don't remember". (Last Thurs he came up to me completely out of nowhere, sat in my lap and gave me the most delicious long lasting purple and black hickey I have ever had. It felt he was drinking a tequila shot off my neck - lime, salt, tequila) Then asked me why I had black nails. As I was about to tell him they match and outfit I planned on wearing later my friend K says "shes a witch" . He said black was his favorite color in the whole world and I asked him if he wanted to see a magic trick. He said he did. I said I could only do it in the dark. He said it was dark outside. It was.

I have this huge book called Hunger's Brides. Can't wait to start it. I will never have enough time to read everything I want to read.

What is it with people in your family who just think they can make comments about you like its their business. My aunt just walks right up to my 9 year old daughter... lifts her shirt and pats her belly. WTF? Personal boundaries people! SHIT.
She's 9! And hugging people you dont want to hug because they are "family" (3rd cousin twice removed or some such bullshit even) I dont make them hug anyone they dont want to or even like or know for that matter.... am I wrong?

K I have issues with real relationships. I can know someone and not have sex or have sex and not know someone, but the mind and the body cant seem to be shared by the same person with me. It either "shut up and kiss me" or I'm just loving you , talking, listening, caring, true intimacy - but not feeling like I want to get my freak on with this person. I'm screwed in the head. When ever shall the twain meet?

My dog steals my cats food then throws it up. Wheres the logic in that.

The pool got covered today and I just heard its going to be 80 this week. Bad timing. Should have held out one more week.

Is it possible to have a dick as fat as a beer can?

I have freckles like on my chest, back, arms, now Im scared about skin cancer.

I need a huge pine tree in my yard cut down. I owe my lawyer $170. the Heat guy $100. My other lawyer $159. My pool guy $80. The exterminator $150 from having bees in the chimney. My neighbor $100 for helping me paint. I need 5 gallons of exterior paint and $100 to get the house painted outside the end of this month.

I need to go to the Dr (the skin thing) My gas bill is $300 (no shit) eletric is $170. Cell $100. house phone $35. Mortgage. Real estate taxes. Car insurance on both cars. I got cheap Kings Dominion tickets ($20 for 2) so I gotta figure out when to go there since they are open weekends only for October only)

I feel so domestic and responsible. Maybe thats why I just need to be mindless with someone every now and then. Plus I dont know if I know how to do it the real way. The healthy way.

Why do guys say they will call and dont? Why do you care when you dont even like the guy. You dont want him but you dont want him to not want you and you are pissed he isnt calling but when he calls you roll your eyes and go "God! Now what!" Psycho Shit right there.

I got a manicure today. Already messed one up. Cleaned the house like a fucking fiend in a frenzy. Ah . Satisfaction. I need to have a yard sale. I need more closet space.
I need.......................... The key to happiness is wanting what you have.

Can I print out my journals??? Anyone?? Anyone???