wendy1

Tonight made me so angry. Shitty people, shitty tips, shitty manager, shitty hostess, shitty coworkers. My station was full of a certain group of people who are notorious for being rude, pushy, and bad tippers. They, true to form, were rude pushy and they tipped badly. Plus it was crazy busy and the kitchen was really behind. Food was coming out cold, and wrong. The bartender was really behind too, which meant late margaritas and bad tips for the servers. My buddy isnt speaking to me, I dont know if Im being paranoid. Hes not talking to anybody else, either....but I still feel like its just me. He has no reason to be mad at me becuase I have been really nice to him since we met. I think hes just pissed at the job. The busboy that has a crush on me kept trying to be playful by poking me and splashing water on me and shit but I was too pissed to play back. Plus I dont like him. And he always asks me 'do you think Im attractive, yes or no' and he asks it just like that. So annoying. Plus hes like 16.
I'm scared shitless about school. It just seems like a huge chance to fail. And, if I fail, thats like, me failing. Period. End of life. I can't be a waitress forever. I'm too close to freaking out as it is.
I was driving home tonight and I saw a car with its hazards on by the side of the road. Then I got to thinking about how I would've liked to stop and help them but I shouldn't becuase its dangerous. And what a shitty world this is because of that kind of thing. Stupid negativity.
I like the graham norton effect.
I want to give away all my stuff and start fresh. All my little trinkets and everything. I want to start a thread and tell people that if they give me their address, Ill send them some of my stuff, but Im afraid becuase sometimes people start threads with good intentions and people just rip them to shreds. Do you think I should do it?
Im just glad to be off of work, able to decompress, eat my veg chili, drink my dr pepper and watch my comedy central all by my lonesome. All by my lonesome is the best.
I went to the bar with the kids from work last night and it was a huge letdown. First of all, the bar was like a dive (which is fine by me but this one sucked), the people there were real wierd....and not wierd like me, just kinda cowboyish but skinheadish too? Hard to explain. So I go out to the patio for a smoke and this guy follows me out and proceeds to tell me a bunch of really awful racist jokes. I was not amused. One of the jokes, which actually really offended me (its really hard to offend me) was this: "Whats the difference between a pizza and a Jew? A pizza doesnt scream when it goes in the flames." This is after he asks what nationality I am and I tell him I am of jewish descent. What an asshole. So I politely excused myself but he kept following me around for some reason.
End of transmission, over and out.