welcome2thedawn

wow...someone was feeling mighty sappy last night. i should know by now... don't post while intoxicated.

the thought crosses my mind... if i never wake up in the morning... would he ever doubt the way i feel about him in my heart...if tomorrow never comes... would he know how much i loved him...if my time on earth were through...would he know how much i love him...is the love i gave him in the past...gonna be enough to last...if tomorrow never comes....
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i have the coolest job ever. i work afternoons at subterranea. it's an alternative clothing store. we just got in soooo much cool stuff. i love it. i pretty much work for clothes...but that's ok. i just got the best ruby gloom socks. they're the best socks ever, and a bunch of fine shirts. kinky girls shirt, candy cigs shirt, muscle shirt with sculls and...
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i just got some new tatto work done...yippee!! 3 hours on my chest. i always thought i was such a bad ass, and that i can take anything. ooohhwhheeee! chest tattoos aint no joke. thier pretty though, and i obviously lived through it. ready for the next one...and more surface piercings. once you take it to the next level anything before that is boring.

oh what a fucking night...friends fighting...police...crazy shit...and to think... i reallly thought that tonight would be the night i accually got some sleep. didn't happen. it's 3:36 am. i'm not asleep. i'm so happy i have my sweetheart... that he isn't crazy...that we don't have all the mad drama that so many other people seem to have. it's so nice to finally be completely happy...
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so...i ate mushrooms last night. i remember it being so much better then it was. of course that was 10 years ago. life is so much different now. i guess it would be. 16, running around in the forest, fearless, with no responsibilities... would be different then 26, in a crowded bar, paranoid that i'm not acting "normal"

yippeeee! i finally have a profile pic. so it's not the best picture ever... but i have one. thank you sweetheart!

i'm back! it's so great to finally have energy again. i've been dead for months. it's time to wake up and catch up on life. maybe even get a profile pic. yeah right, i've been saying that for months.

so, i havn't written anything in forever. i'm only working 3 hours a day now. i would think that with all that time on my hands i would be more productive then i have been. nope. not at all. i've been so lazy lately. it seems like all i do these days i sit on my arse. i feel no motivation to do much of...
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my dreams are like one big tripped out ride that i can't get off of. i wake up and want to cry or scream...what am i doing with my life???