so, i havn't written anything in forever. i'm only working 3 hours a day now. i would think that with all that time on my hands i would be more productive then i have been. nope. not at all. i've been so lazy lately. it seems like all i do these days i sit on my arse. i feel no motivation to do much of anything. i need so much to feel alive again. i'm not depressed. my life is accually pretty good lately. i just can't seem to get out of this rut? 
i can relate to the need to feel alive...