welchjsn

At some point I will need to start seeing the patterns that become so clear in hind sight. Constantly, over and over the same things happen but they are never noticed until its too late to see their occurrence. It seems like every path Ive taken has always come to a point where it can no longer be seen and I can no long remember why I started down that path to begin with. So, I take to a new trail, only to loose sight of it and remember why I was on the previous route. Returning to the old path isnt ever as simple as turning around and back tracking, because too much ground has been covered and I no longer remember the way back. So, I have to evaluate the situation and decide if its worth the effort to blaze a new trail back to the old one, or set out in another direction. Its a catch 22 though, because as I said, I will eventually loose direction and have to do all of this all over again. I have covered a lot of ground in my life and experienced and seen things that few people could ever hope to accomplish, but at what cost? What was lost to me by abandoning previous paths? Maybe one day when I finally reach the end of my journy I will be able to look back with hind sight and be able to judge what was missing and what wasnt.