I was taking a shower last night and almost did it.. I had a razor in my hand and a evil thought of cutting crossed my mind. It was so tempting... Sometimes I think I need to punish myself. My life is going great and I'm scared it will all fall apart like it has in the past everytime I become happy. Yes, I may be a model; but I'm still human. I'm by no means perfect. I've been in an abusive relationship in the past and I've thought of suicide alot. But now, the rain has stopped and my life is going really well. I have an amazing boyfriend that loves me, I am a Hopeful model for Suicide Girls, and I have a beautiful little girl. This is to everyone who self harms, who starves themselves, and anyone who thinks they're not good enough or that they should die. You ARE a beautiful person, guys and girls alike. No one should let you get to this point and if you ever need someone to talk to, I will be here waiting for the message. I love all of you. Yall are the most beautiful people, not because you've been broken; but because you've lived through it. You've fought through it. You're giving yourselves reasons to live everyday. You can make it. You can be stronger than their words. And if you get depressed, I will be here to catch you when you fall, day or night.
