one by one my friends are moving away from me and it's breaking my heart. 
. in the past 6 months both of my best girl friends have moved far away from me. i wasn't aware that sheri (best friend #2) would be moving away so fast. her husband is in the navy, and he was just stationed in san diego, so she is going to be moving there on friday. i didn't think she was leaving until the middle of april. i was home this weekend, and so was sheri, and i kept calling her, but she never got the message or was too busy to call me back and so didn't get to say goodbye to her. i'm so upset about this, and it's driving me insane. i don't know when i will see sheri again, all i wanted was to say goodbye to her, and now i can't because i can't make it home again until after she's leaving. chris is my best friend and i love to spend as much time with him as i can because no one can make me feel like he does, but it still hurts to know that from now on whenever i go home he will be my only close friend. i guess that this is just a part of life, this is a part of growing up, but i just didn't want my friends to move away from me ever. they mean so much to me, and it's heartbreaking when they have to leave.
i'm such a crybaby sometimes.
so it was a pretty good weekend except for finding out that sheri was moving. i got to see chris three days in a row, which never happens unless i'm home for break. it was so nice to spend time with him and not even think about school. we didn't really do much. we just stayed in bed for the most part and i kicked his ass at mario kart. i love mario kart. i need to bring the nintendo 64 back to school with me the next time i go home.
apparently today was high school day. i saw like 4 people that i haven't seen since graduation or before all at the same time today at trader joe's. it was crazy. it was so nice to see rich though. he was always one of my favorites, and he gave me a hug, and it was so nice after not talking to him in basically 3 years. i wish i was still friends with him, he was such an amazing person, i'm sure he still is.
sometimes when i think about how much i love chris it makes me want to cry, i really would do anything for him, sometimes i love him more than myself. i would give him anything and everything he wanted. he means the world to me, really he does. when we lay in bed and hold each other i feel myself giving parts of myself to him. i just seep out of my pores and into him. sometimes after we make love i almost start to cry because i love him so much and i really feel like i'm sharing myself with him. we are so connected.i would love to spend the rest of my life with him, i hope it works out that way.
so i have to write an essay for my application to go to britain next january for a creative writing class with my school. does anyone have any good ideas for things that i should write in the essay about why i want to go and what i can get out of the experience and all that? any ideas would really help because i really want to go on this trip. we are going to get to go to so many amazing places. so help me please.
bad things...
-friends moving away
-i'm hungry
good things...
-bagels
-two brand new pairs of doc marten's for $60 total
-having a good visit at home
-ice cream sandwiches
-mario kart
reading: some stuff for history class about slaves (very depressing and sickening)
listening to: "on my own" the used
. in the past 6 months both of my best girl friends have moved far away from me. i wasn't aware that sheri (best friend #2) would be moving away so fast. her husband is in the navy, and he was just stationed in san diego, so she is going to be moving there on friday. i didn't think she was leaving until the middle of april. i was home this weekend, and so was sheri, and i kept calling her, but she never got the message or was too busy to call me back and so didn't get to say goodbye to her. i'm so upset about this, and it's driving me insane. i don't know when i will see sheri again, all i wanted was to say goodbye to her, and now i can't because i can't make it home again until after she's leaving. chris is my best friend and i love to spend as much time with him as i can because no one can make me feel like he does, but it still hurts to know that from now on whenever i go home he will be my only close friend. i guess that this is just a part of life, this is a part of growing up, but i just didn't want my friends to move away from me ever. they mean so much to me, and it's heartbreaking when they have to leave.
i'm such a crybaby sometimes.
so it was a pretty good weekend except for finding out that sheri was moving. i got to see chris three days in a row, which never happens unless i'm home for break. it was so nice to spend time with him and not even think about school. we didn't really do much. we just stayed in bed for the most part and i kicked his ass at mario kart. i love mario kart. i need to bring the nintendo 64 back to school with me the next time i go home.
apparently today was high school day. i saw like 4 people that i haven't seen since graduation or before all at the same time today at trader joe's. it was crazy. it was so nice to see rich though. he was always one of my favorites, and he gave me a hug, and it was so nice after not talking to him in basically 3 years. i wish i was still friends with him, he was such an amazing person, i'm sure he still is.
sometimes when i think about how much i love chris it makes me want to cry, i really would do anything for him, sometimes i love him more than myself. i would give him anything and everything he wanted. he means the world to me, really he does. when we lay in bed and hold each other i feel myself giving parts of myself to him. i just seep out of my pores and into him. sometimes after we make love i almost start to cry because i love him so much and i really feel like i'm sharing myself with him. we are so connected.i would love to spend the rest of my life with him, i hope it works out that way.
so i have to write an essay for my application to go to britain next january for a creative writing class with my school. does anyone have any good ideas for things that i should write in the essay about why i want to go and what i can get out of the experience and all that? any ideas would really help because i really want to go on this trip. we are going to get to go to so many amazing places. so help me please.
bad things...
-friends moving away
-i'm hungry
good things...
-bagels
-two brand new pairs of doc marten's for $60 total
-having a good visit at home
-ice cream sandwiches
-mario kart
reading: some stuff for history class about slaves (very depressing and sickening)
listening to: "on my own" the used
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Anyways, I've had Ash Wednesday for ages but have somehow never gotten around to reading it- one thing or another- what with relocating 4000 miles from Ontario and all, and yeah- I can imagine it will be great but not come close to The Hottest State.
I know what you're going through relationship-wise too... the long-distance thing... been there, done that, could not handle it....
Mmm. The Handmaids Tale is another one... That book is so bizarre conceptually, I mean I don't think the ideas in it are so far fetched, but I found a lot of it pretty disturbing. I think she's a good writer, but I wouldn't say I'm a fan.
AS for your essay for that trip to britain- so long as you make a big deal about the great british writers and playwrights from years gone by, the sense of history and social and cultural diversity here,- and how seeing anotehr similar but altogether different culture will give you a different slant on modern society and so on, that should steer you right...
Take care, and good luck with everything