webigailboop

so i'm reading "love in the time of cholera" right now. you know, at times i'm really bored and then other times the language is so beautiful and romantic that i want to cry. it's amazing.
i've been thinking lately...like i don't think i want college to end. but then again i'm so desperate to get out of here and be on my own and do whatever i want and have some sort of steady income. but it's like i really enjoy being in college. i know that there's no way that i can afford to stay in school and that i really don't want to. i think it's just that i don't want this time in my life to end. i don't want to get older. i don't want to look at the calendar and one day be 45. i want to stay young forever, but i know that can't happen. i guess eventually leaving college means that i have to grow up for real. i can't depend on my parents anymore. not that i want to depend on my parents, but it's nice to get money every month. i just love being young and i don't want it to end. we should all be able to stay young and beautiful forever.