I believe this sums up my current state of mind.
In about six weeks I will of completed my computer engineer course. It's highly likely that I will have passed it. Everything beyond that is a fucking mystery.
I know this is subject I've already covered. But I'm bloody scared. I've stacked all my chips on a company that may or may not find me employment. Even if they do I have no idea if I'll be able to do the job. This isn't a confidence issue. Its an "Oh fuck am I doing the right thing" issue. Is this really what I want to do?
I have no answer to that question other than I don't want to do what I do now.
I worry that I might be swapping one crap job for another.
But thats me. I worry.
I also jump head first into situations were I have no idea what the outcome maybe. Sometimes i wonder if I do these things just to give myself something to worry about.
Can't back out now though. So fuck it. Unless I end up on the streets it can't be worse than working in a fucking supermarket.
In more interesting news:
- Los Campesinos album "Now Hold On Youngster" is really good.
- Ratatouille is probably the most joyous film ever made.
- It looks shit but i really want to see this.
- These two bands are rocking my fucking world.
Blood Red Shoes - Its Getting Boring By the Sea.
The Ting TIngs - Great DJ
That is all.
In about six weeks I will of completed my computer engineer course. It's highly likely that I will have passed it. Everything beyond that is a fucking mystery.
I know this is subject I've already covered. But I'm bloody scared. I've stacked all my chips on a company that may or may not find me employment. Even if they do I have no idea if I'll be able to do the job. This isn't a confidence issue. Its an "Oh fuck am I doing the right thing" issue. Is this really what I want to do?
I have no answer to that question other than I don't want to do what I do now.
I worry that I might be swapping one crap job for another.
But thats me. I worry.
I also jump head first into situations were I have no idea what the outcome maybe. Sometimes i wonder if I do these things just to give myself something to worry about.
Can't back out now though. So fuck it. Unless I end up on the streets it can't be worse than working in a fucking supermarket.
In more interesting news:
- Los Campesinos album "Now Hold On Youngster" is really good.
- Ratatouille is probably the most joyous film ever made.
- It looks shit but i really want to see this.
- These two bands are rocking my fucking world.
Blood Red Shoes - Its Getting Boring By the Sea.
The Ting TIngs - Great DJ
That is all.