I HATE THESE THINGS...
1. Have you ever been in love? how about if at the time i thought i was but looking back... ok yes i was but i fuck everything up for myself.
2. Do you still talk to that person? yes
3. Do you think you will ever get married? probalby
4. Do you want to? sure, it doesn't mean i have...
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1. Have you ever been in love? how about if at the time i thought i was but looking back... ok yes i was but i fuck everything up for myself.
2. Do you still talk to that person? yes
3. Do you think you will ever get married? probalby
4. Do you want to? sure, it doesn't mean i have...
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trilobyte:
you filled it out first, miss cool-ass injury photo! 
was_nicole:
it's death .. i'm gong to wake up and feel liek ass tomorrow top less ass.
umm 2 done 6 to go.
one took 5 hours and the other took 4 hours.
i need food.
they took off luna's cast and now she has a scared up little chicken leg. poor doggie still wobbling about.
i want to get drunk, which is almost rare. but i have to paint. i will drink vodka, later yes.
one took 5 hours and the other took 4 hours.
i need food.
they took off luna's cast and now she has a scared up little chicken leg. poor doggie still wobbling about.
i want to get drunk, which is almost rare. but i have to paint. i will drink vodka, later yes.
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kengineer:
He forgot vodka & cranberry, the drink of choice at the local goth club. Russian bartenders lay the vodka on heavy.
I sympathize with your pressure. I went through similar stuff in school, with giant projects due at the end. I folded under the pressure but my girlfriend helped pep talk me back into motion. My recent history is similar, with the pressures of starting my own business and associated product demo deadlines. Anyway, good luck.
Did anyone make you laugh? The funniest jokes I know have to be told in person. Here, let me try one . . .
What sound does a six-hundred pound canary make?
I sympathize with your pressure. I went through similar stuff in school, with giant projects due at the end. I folded under the pressure but my girlfriend helped pep talk me back into motion. My recent history is similar, with the pressures of starting my own business and associated product demo deadlines. Anyway, good luck.
Did anyone make you laugh? The funniest jokes I know have to be told in person. Here, let me try one . . .
What sound does a six-hundred pound canary make?
melissa2:
i wanna drink. which is also rare.
i'm sick of that journal.
somethign you didn't know about me...
i tried to kill someone once.... then i realized what i was doing.
somethign you didn't know about me...
i tried to kill someone once.... then i realized what i was doing.
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thursday:
i had death plans for someone once too. the only reason i didn't follow through with them was because i was afraid the blame would be put on the friend of mine that he abused. i didn't want her to get in trouble for anything that happened to him.
and as far as the skirt goes, it's a crinoline that i found at a secondhand/vintage shop. $19.95 baby.
and as far as the skirt goes, it's a crinoline that i found at a secondhand/vintage shop. $19.95 baby.
ikilledpinky:
ok, one vomit special, limited edition photo coming up
mark says i am one sad girl.
i never saw it as sad.
i spilled water all over 3 FINISHED painting that are due in a week. so now i have 8 paintings to do. and more anxiety and less xanax left.
actually i only have one xanax left.
this week is killing me at an increasing speed. i need an outlet for this.
i...
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i never saw it as sad.
i spilled water all over 3 FINISHED painting that are due in a week. so now i have 8 paintings to do. and more anxiety and less xanax left.
actually i only have one xanax left.
this week is killing me at an increasing speed. i need an outlet for this.
i...
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dangerseeker:
I don't know you, but I never pass up a chance to tell a good joke...
KNOCK! KNOCK!
Who's there?
NOSE!
Nose who?
I NOSE PLENTY MORE KNOCK-KNOCK JOKES, DON'T WORRY!
Did I say a good joke? I suck...
KNOCK! KNOCK!
Who's there?
NOSE!
Nose who?
I NOSE PLENTY MORE KNOCK-KNOCK JOKES, DON'T WORRY!
Did I say a good joke? I suck...
mrzablowdowski:
try my best opening line
Hey! ... Your cute!
sounds better the louder the music
and/or the more you drink
Hey! ... Your cute!
sounds better the louder the music
and/or the more you drink
enough long posts and stories.
i don't know how to trust anyone. any situtation that involves trust and i get scared. maybe i don't trust myself. i pretend i can deal with things and they actually drive me absolutely crazy inside. i like to run away even though i don't want to.
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on a positive note. soon the warmth will be here. warmth means...
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i don't know how to trust anyone. any situtation that involves trust and i get scared. maybe i don't trust myself. i pretend i can deal with things and they actually drive me absolutely crazy inside. i like to run away even though i don't want to.
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on a positive note. soon the warmth will be here. warmth means...
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leiru13:
I never had a problem with withdraws... but I was never on xanax, I was on tranzene which isn't as strong. You do begin to associate oncoming anxiety attack with taking the pill though, and it is like reflex. Anxiety= pop pill. anyway. time to go see the doc.
skryche:
I'm interested all over.
it's always good to have lost your emergency pill you carry around in case of anxiety attacks.
so when you have an anxiety attack it can be worse.
but now i'm home and i have my alprazolam and everything is going to be ok...for now.
*****
my dad came home and told me he gave one of his friends my phone nubmer for their son....
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so when you have an anxiety attack it can be worse.
but now i'm home and i have my alprazolam and everything is going to be ok...for now.
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my dad came home and told me he gave one of his friends my phone nubmer for their son....
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trilobyte:
your parents sound like an interesting combo... dad and his misguided attempts at being cool... and of course mom sounds a bit too much like a psycho... did dad at least suggest someone that was half-cool? or is it just sad and you're dreading the phone ringing?
for a while when i first graduated high school, my parents got pretty insane. sometimes there was the whole good cop/bad cop thing where one would freak out and the other would pretend to be understanding. Sometimes it was all bad. They were giving me shit about my life (seemed like everything about my life set them off), and there was a lot of pressure to move out on my own. I ended up bailing on college so I could work full time and have my own place, and in the process moved out of state. Problem seemed to be solved, and ever since then we've gotten along. I'm not sure if it was after years under the same roof it was just personalities rubbing the wrong way, or if maybe when I graduated high school they knew that my time living at home was drawing to a close and they were fearful of that and just expressed it badly. It was probably some of both. But we get along really well now, and they've apologized for pretty much all the craziness. So I guess what I'm saying is that your parents may be so psycho because they're having difficulty with the idea that their time of "raising you" is almost over. So don't let them get under your skin **too** much. Once you get out on your own the relationship will change in a big way. Hopefully the transition from adversary to ally will be smooth and quick.
for a while when i first graduated high school, my parents got pretty insane. sometimes there was the whole good cop/bad cop thing where one would freak out and the other would pretend to be understanding. Sometimes it was all bad. They were giving me shit about my life (seemed like everything about my life set them off), and there was a lot of pressure to move out on my own. I ended up bailing on college so I could work full time and have my own place, and in the process moved out of state. Problem seemed to be solved, and ever since then we've gotten along. I'm not sure if it was after years under the same roof it was just personalities rubbing the wrong way, or if maybe when I graduated high school they knew that my time living at home was drawing to a close and they were fearful of that and just expressed it badly. It was probably some of both. But we get along really well now, and they've apologized for pretty much all the craziness. So I guess what I'm saying is that your parents may be so psycho because they're having difficulty with the idea that their time of "raising you" is almost over. So don't let them get under your skin **too** much. Once you get out on your own the relationship will change in a big way. Hopefully the transition from adversary to ally will be smooth and quick.
stellartrane:
I know how you feel. I use to have very severe anxiety attacks for about three years. I use to walk for miles aimlessly to shake the over whelming feelings and refused to see anyone for about a year. You feel half asleep all the time cause you can't sleep. You think you are going crazy and the future is a void. I don't even want to talk about all the pills those asshole doctors tried to subscribe me, alprazolam didn't do shit except make me tired.
I came to realization (without drugs) that I was freaking out about my future. One day I just said fuck it. I refuse to be scared any more or take anymore pills or anti-depressants, and choose to take what ever comes at me. After that I when I had one I just got pissed and told myself to calm down and quit being a pussy (this was my solution, probably won't work 99% of the time for anyone else). Amazingly after awhile and getting some of my shit together they went away all together.
Just hang in there and say fuck it, it's only a state of mind anyhow.... trust me, I've been there, I little place I like to call crazyville. --J
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I came to realization (without drugs) that I was freaking out about my future. One day I just said fuck it. I refuse to be scared any more or take anymore pills or anti-depressants, and choose to take what ever comes at me. After that I when I had one I just got pissed and told myself to calm down and quit being a pussy (this was my solution, probably won't work 99% of the time for anyone else). Amazingly after awhile and getting some of my shit together they went away all together.
Just hang in there and say fuck it, it's only a state of mind anyhow.... trust me, I've been there, I little place I like to call crazyville. --J
[Edited on Apr 01, 2003]
after this evenings activities me and penny are in love again so fuck off... you can now all proceed to be jealous once again.
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liztraylor:
Ok .. *jealous*
redskull:
maybe the little miss won't be so cranky now.
say i love you to nicole she travels 8 hours to see you.
things like this work here is the proof:
pennyellope: nicole
pennyellope: i love you
pennyellope: come over
bloodybombshell: i'm coming over
bloodybombshell: soon enough
pennyellope: rr
bloodybombshell: don't rr me missy
yea soo...
i'm going to visit the lovely miss penny soon. in like 2 weeks. or something... because i didn't see...
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things like this work here is the proof:
pennyellope: nicole
pennyellope: i love you
pennyellope: come over
bloodybombshell: i'm coming over
bloodybombshell: soon enough
pennyellope: rr
bloodybombshell: don't rr me missy
yea soo...
i'm going to visit the lovely miss penny soon. in like 2 weeks. or something... because i didn't see...
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penelopelee:
who's confused? i am. where did i put my pills?
paulsandman:
Me envy of you is growing
i think i needed to end my identity crisis
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melissa2:
yay!!!! she speaks........
joscelyne:
i need mine started up again.
i'm beginning to realize my thought patterns are complete irrational.
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penelopelee:
check out my fantasy, d00d. okay, i'm going to sleep.
johnnysuicide:
how are they irraational?