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This has been a very bittersweet week.

In my journey to bettering myself I have realized some very scary things.

This is not the place to talk about them but believe me, I've shocked myself. I have some serious things to deal with.

If this is a prequel to my birthday, it's going to fucking suck.....

I hope that with all the good things happening to me I can see past the things that are dragging me into this downward spiral.

I finally got my classes scheduled, let's just hope that I can handle it and that my stupid financial aid goes through on time LOL. I will most certainly be cutting it close. I am very much looking forward to being back in school though. It has been nearly two years, long enough break.

As far as the great job search goes, I got a call back from the library and I am interviewing today Wish me luck If I get this job, I will fucking scream....I am excited, but the pessimist in me is expecting not to get it so if I don't I won't be disappointed ya know?

Other than that, not much else is going on. Reading Vonnegut and LOVING it. Im still waiting on a call from the library about "The Wolf at the Table" by Augusten cause I certainly do not have 24.95 to blow on a book. If I did I surely would. He is probably one of my top five authors. I really enjoy the honesty in his writing and his books have helped me to wrestle some of my own personal demons. I still have not read "Dry" but I think it's coming on at the perfect time...

Hope everyone has fun at Hell City, unfortunately I will not be attending due to many factors. Im sad about it but I can't change it...so HAVE fun guys!!!

In closing, I hope everyone is having a good week.

Birthday countdown: 3 days.....