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This is insane. Being a Suicide Girl keeps getting more and more f'in awesome....and next week is HAVANA!! Im so excited. I had a turbulent, volatile, cuckoo banana friggin past year and this was is an amazing start to this year. Im not big on blogging but Im finding myself more and more drawn to it. I have so many thoughts about this experience so far and Im thoroughly enjoying every bit of it.

Last year was nutty...I broke off a long relationship early in the year and just went NUTS! It all began with going on tour with a band...I accidently ended up on the tour but it was a very interesting, liberating experience. All I had were the clothes on my back...which I must say were not very comfortable...I wore peep toe heels for 5 days straight. I traveled to 4 different cities over the course of the week, slept on floors, ate hardly anything and drank my mind away. I think I spent the entire month of April drunk...lol my bad. Overall it was the best and worst week of my whole year. I was all on my own, ON A TOUR with one of my favorite bands, and didn't have to answer to anyone at home....but I also began to get a little delirious from lack of food and sleep so I kind of became emotional. It sucked because I didn't have anyone to talk to really and I was miles away from home. But I couldn't really complain because I was having the time of my life...The entire experience made me realize that I can do ANYTHING I want to do and I should never ever let anyone hold me back. It kicked off a total change...I moved away from my hometown and was completely supporting myself...which was really something I had never done. It was scary and terrible at times but all the crazy experiences I had all made up for the hard times. I went to shows, galleries, took tons of road trips by myself and really just lived. I grew alot this year....

I guess it is somewhat unrealistic to live for the present, but I do just that. I just try to really LIVE, and I encourage others to do the same. So many people make excuses for their unhappy situations and I hate it. If you don't have any children....and sometimes even if you do, YOU CAN DO WHATEVER THE HELL YOU WANT! I just try to do what makes me happy while trying to respect others, but I am young and I don't ever want to look back on my life and say "Why didn't I ____?"...Society is trapped in their day to day and it is so unfortunate because I am a living example that you can make shit happen if you REALLY REALLY want it...

GO FORTH AND MAKE SHIT HAPPEN!