warchild

can't sleep....I hate it when this happens....I have a long long weekend ahead of me and I need to be at work at 11am to work a double shift and I probably won't be able to fall asleep till just before I have to wake up and if I do that I will be late to work and written up "again" for attendance issues....it's nights like this that I should have cracked open the vodka early on so I could get just enough of that warm fuzzy to pass my ass out but I hate and refuse to drink alone. I would go out but thursdays suck for club nights around here (one place has a shitty dj but decent atmosphere and the other place sucks being nothing but a sausage fest even thou I know the dj and he spins a decent set)....and I still have to do laundry....stupid procrastination....stupid me......well ok I'm not stupid (well ok if you believe Kira I am ) but that still doesn't mean that I can't beat myself up over my flaws and faults, right? Ok now I really am rambling on about bullshit that doesn't mean a damn thing because really it's a feeling that will be forgotten as soon as the next object to distract my attention presents itself....just hope it gets here soon ....hrmm maybe I should get off line and start that damn laundry.....stupid procrastination......can't sleep.......hrmmm yeah laundry sounds good about now

sleep tight people
peace

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If life is but a dream we can only hope that we can shape it to the desire of our heart. To make it lucid, so that we can controll what happens to us and our loved ones. To controll this maddening landscape that shifts its way thru our fingers like whisps of smoke. To see sunshine glint off the skin of our beautiful faces, and to never run from fear again.