wanstead

Feeling worse today... I really have no focus at all. There so much I should know but so much I don't. I know I can learn it its just I don't have the inclination.

I really am just mentally drifting now. My wife knows I must start hunting for a new job, but fuck I can't be arse. Nothing out there really appears to be what I want.

There is an alternative., nope not that, I tried a noose once, don't think I will again.

So how do I go about getting to do it. Where do I start, what should the idea be. I started on this afternoon but then diverted and procrastinated.