The Sugarcubes - Hit an amazing track
Its one of those tracks that really brings back memories for me. At the time I was having an affair... well no I was the other man. She was a Commodities Trader as UBS Warburg - I was the scruffy bit of rough, her fiance a hard man Senior Securities Broker for some US based bank here in the city. I never got to really loosen her up and show her how fun sex could be - she was always worried the her blokey would find out and try to get tough about stuff.
I always find it funny when men of a certain background (without front line field service) try to be hard about things. I had an extraordinary violent upbringing. My Father served a lot of time in a category A prison and my stepfather was a really nasty piece of work (so was my mother, I've come to the conclusion that she was the real instigator of all the violence).
I still haven't heard back from the violence counselling service yet. I know there is a bit of a waiting list... but I'm really hoping to get on to the sessions as soon as possible. I think it will stop my life from being the bloody car crash and battlefield that its always been.
The main reason I want all this to change is that I have a wife and two little girls and I don't want them seeing any of the stuff that I went through. Sometimes its so difficult not to use fists to settle an argument. I find more and more as work or on the daily commute not to lash out as irritating people. Primarily, as well, having two young stroppy daughters who won't listen to me and my wife who is a major control freak who like everything done to her agenda and won't listen to me very, well frustrating.
I have to admit I've had a very tough couple of years and the stress has got to me. One doctor has suggested its a form of PTSD but I'll wait for the pros to come up with a diagnosis.
So to cheer myself up from this maudlin self pity a recent find of sheer sexiness
Its one of those tracks that really brings back memories for me. At the time I was having an affair... well no I was the other man. She was a Commodities Trader as UBS Warburg - I was the scruffy bit of rough, her fiance a hard man Senior Securities Broker for some US based bank here in the city. I never got to really loosen her up and show her how fun sex could be - she was always worried the her blokey would find out and try to get tough about stuff.
I always find it funny when men of a certain background (without front line field service) try to be hard about things. I had an extraordinary violent upbringing. My Father served a lot of time in a category A prison and my stepfather was a really nasty piece of work (so was my mother, I've come to the conclusion that she was the real instigator of all the violence).
I still haven't heard back from the violence counselling service yet. I know there is a bit of a waiting list... but I'm really hoping to get on to the sessions as soon as possible. I think it will stop my life from being the bloody car crash and battlefield that its always been.
The main reason I want all this to change is that I have a wife and two little girls and I don't want them seeing any of the stuff that I went through. Sometimes its so difficult not to use fists to settle an argument. I find more and more as work or on the daily commute not to lash out as irritating people. Primarily, as well, having two young stroppy daughters who won't listen to me and my wife who is a major control freak who like everything done to her agenda and won't listen to me very, well frustrating.
I have to admit I've had a very tough couple of years and the stress has got to me. One doctor has suggested its a form of PTSD but I'll wait for the pros to come up with a diagnosis.
So to cheer myself up from this maudlin self pity a recent find of sheer sexiness
