walshant

As those of you who know me are aware, my main characteristic (besides my insatiable lust) is that i am a giver. I tell stories and jokes and all that jazz, and while it would seem like i dominate a conversation, it is all with the intent to entertain. i want to give joy and amusment to my friends, loved ones, and any lady willing to let me feel her special bathing suite area. The point is i like to give, in any way possible. those little santa dudes with the buckets outside of malls and grocery stores, each year they easily make 150 bucks off of me.

The second and over point, or plot for us literary people, is that being someone so inclined to give, trust, and give the benifit of the doubt, i end up in many toxic relationships. people who use my good nature to there advantage. Girlfriends, normal friends, whatever, i seem to be surrounded by wolves with only two real people to back me up. my mother and my best friend Jenna. The rest use me, and i let them because i get sucked into it.

but what i have beenw ondering, and the question i pose to the ever lasting void that is the internet is that is there any way for me to find a balance? to have a giving, outgoing nature with good intentions and not be fucked? (i mean fucked as in the bad way, not the count the legs and divide by 2 way...i want to be fucked that way, tell your friends ) If anyone has done this and has advice please let me know, I'd hate to end up cynical and jaded.