Isnt it great? Its getting closer and closer to Christmas.
Isnt it great? Nope not at all. Be the single worst year of my sort life. Because of the actions of both sides of my family I have no respect any of them. What they have done and what they have said behind each others back has shown me I shouldnt waste my time with them. Also my Mom and Step Dad are heading out of town, as well as my Dad and Step Mom. And the final nail in the Christmas coffin is the two people that made the holidays what they where for me have passed on. And greedy family members sold the one place everyone gathered for the holidays. Once my grandma died they couldnt sell the place fast enough.
Even though I hate the holidays anymore I do still like the weather. Got do so something I love doing the other night. It had been raining, the streets where still wet light was reflection off. There was a nice fog over parts of the city and other area cities. Visibility was any where from 50ft to a quarter of a mile where I went. I just got in my truck turned the heater up, rolled the windows down a little and drove with some good music playing. Its kind of my way to relieve stress and just think about things. Just driving around nights like that and taking all the back roads with few buildings and fewer lights when I could.
A really good friend of mine told me some news tonight as well. She just got engaged. She is happy as can be, and for that I am glad. But she has only known the guy for a month, and hasnt even met him yet. She has been going through some bad times, and this seems to have changed things around for her. But still kind of hurts me a bit.
Overall Im a bit down right now, but Im being positive. I have things I need to get down and out of the way. I have to just keep looking ahead to my two surgeries and my dental work. This will help make me feel better, if not emotionally (that will take time) then physically. My health has been getting worse so I have to be positive. And get some more sleep. Havent really slept much because breathing can be hard at time, and I fear not waking up the next day. Also learned something interesting this week. It is only illegal to discriminate against fat people in San Francisco and the state of Michigan. Yeah I typed out a bunch of stuff. Remind me not to do that again for a long while.
This is a link to remind me.
Isnt it great? Nope not at all. Be the single worst year of my sort life. Because of the actions of both sides of my family I have no respect any of them. What they have done and what they have said behind each others back has shown me I shouldnt waste my time with them. Also my Mom and Step Dad are heading out of town, as well as my Dad and Step Mom. And the final nail in the Christmas coffin is the two people that made the holidays what they where for me have passed on. And greedy family members sold the one place everyone gathered for the holidays. Once my grandma died they couldnt sell the place fast enough.
Even though I hate the holidays anymore I do still like the weather. Got do so something I love doing the other night. It had been raining, the streets where still wet light was reflection off. There was a nice fog over parts of the city and other area cities. Visibility was any where from 50ft to a quarter of a mile where I went. I just got in my truck turned the heater up, rolled the windows down a little and drove with some good music playing. Its kind of my way to relieve stress and just think about things. Just driving around nights like that and taking all the back roads with few buildings and fewer lights when I could.
A really good friend of mine told me some news tonight as well. She just got engaged. She is happy as can be, and for that I am glad. But she has only known the guy for a month, and hasnt even met him yet. She has been going through some bad times, and this seems to have changed things around for her. But still kind of hurts me a bit.
Overall Im a bit down right now, but Im being positive. I have things I need to get down and out of the way. I have to just keep looking ahead to my two surgeries and my dental work. This will help make me feel better, if not emotionally (that will take time) then physically. My health has been getting worse so I have to be positive. And get some more sleep. Havent really slept much because breathing can be hard at time, and I fear not waking up the next day. Also learned something interesting this week. It is only illegal to discriminate against fat people in San Francisco and the state of Michigan. Yeah I typed out a bunch of stuff. Remind me not to do that again for a long while.
This is a link to remind me.
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