wakeangel

been thinking a lot lately about things, lots of things. saw a movie the other night that i think everyone should see called wonderland. it's about the porn star john holmes and the muder he was involved in. it kind of made me sad i'd ever seen porn before. the rationalizing sets in and says "people are gonna get messed up in drugs and vionlence no matter what so..." not that i'm straight-laced or anything i've gone down that rabbit hole before. i just had some rules that kept me safe, knowing my personallity this is a good thing. life is strange for me right now, things are moving in directions i havn't expected. and where have all my friends gone? i hope tabbycat (no longer her name) is doing ok. last transmission was about going back to school. i worry about people too much but i can't help it. how can you care so much about people you've never actually met? this includes all on my list that i regularly write to. i suppose when people come together in a digital way it can sometimes be better than when people meet organically. who knows?