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I have mentioned in other posts how my ex just killed me when she left. Put a big ass fucking hole in my heart. How she ripped out my soul, pissed on it, burned it, then threw it away. This was the love of my life... my soul mate.. mother of my children... I admit, I took it pretty hard.

Swore to myself that I would never let myself get fucked like that again. Never let my heart be taken by someone else. Never fall in love again...

That was November... It's now almost August and I see myself beginning to change my tune. I'm a big believer in fate and how things happen for a reason. A believer that great things happen in the most unexpected places.

See, there's this girl that I met here. She's absolutely amazing. Me, always thinking ahead, about the "what ifs" and the consequences of those ifs, and.... have found someone that makes the future look bright. Not saying that this might go anywhere further than where it is now, but the possibility that it might, the possibility that I might fall in love again, the possibility that she might fall in love with me... Well, it makes me a happy guy again.

Just the fact that I'm wanting to give this a try is a big sign that the bitch I used to call my wife is no longer controlling me. I'm at the wheel and driving where I want to go and have a wonderful destination in sight... good times are ahead....