vulvatron

I just woke up from a nap. I've been fucking beat lately--I donno whats wrong with me. Work was a no-go today so that was nice to get to take a nap after class. I can just feel myself getting stressed out as finals approach because I have one horrible class, another class with a big research requirement thats due in a week and a half, and two huge cummulative finals with lots of reading to do beforehand.

Why is school so retarded?

I just wanna take off a year but I have the feeling I'll never go back if I do that. It's just depressing to know I'll be in school for these 4+ years only to get out and have a job where I make less than $30k a year.

Fuck it, I should have gone to beauty school.

I don't know what to eat tonight. This diet is already boring me to death.

I do know I need to take a shower and all of that smelly-pretty stuff cuz mr. daniel is on his way over after rehearsal and I smell like a dude. So thats not kosher.

I just want some fucking chocolate ice cream and pajamas tonight. Maybe I can settle for frozen yogurt.



ON a happier note, since I'm rambling about bullshit.... My new hair cut makes me feel cute, so thats a plus.

My sister gets into town tonight to visit my parents. I have to drive home tomorrow so my mom, sister, and I are all going shopping. My sister is pyscho, you see, so its always strenuous to have her visit. She's extreme manic depressive, and her anorexia spells have been coming back. So she's constantly blabbing about annoying shit. Annoying because I like to think of myself as a feminist, and she allows the most degrading behavior happen to herself. She also brags about being a disgusting slut. I mean, I advocate for some sluts. I understand. But her's is just for attention so it gets on my nerves. I don't need to hear about her STD tests, thank you very much. She's an idiot. Whatever.

I'm PMSing. Fuck it, im getting me some frozen yogurt.