Good morning friends. I don't have a set time I wake up, I just get up when I get frustrated enough to get out of bed. Stress dreams and nightmares will get me out of bed too, that's when I turn to good ol wake-and-bake. If I can't get back to sleep then I'm at least in a better mood with pain relief. I don't know how I made it this far without access to cannabis for so many years, it was a living nightmare and now I'm smiling and laughing on a daily basis. I still have really bad days but I can still smile and laugh at things when I used to be too depressed to crack a fake smile.
It was really evil of the US government to keep weed illegal for so long, it's better medication than all the pills they kept tossing at me half my life.
Getting away from my abuser, cutting contact with abusive relatives, being with my dogs, and weed are the only reasons I'm still around. My dogs are #1 though, they are my best friends and saved my life.
Try to work on your mental health if you need to, if anyone tries to stand in your way then they don't care about you at all, don't believe their lies when they say they do. If someone cares about you they want you to be healthy and happy, they have to let you take care of yourself. Relationships should not be one sided, that includes family and friends. You deserve the same respect every other human does but some of us had to fight for everything, don't let assholes take your self respect, self love, or confidence away. They don't deserve to have it, it's YOURS!
Once it's gone It's really really hard to get it back. The way I see it, I lost all of those things and I didn't get them back, instead I'm having to cultivate brand new self esteem and respect that I never had in the first place. It's stronger and more resilient than the shreds of self respect I had in the first place from an abusive upbringing.
Enjoy and explore your freedoms too! You have more rights and freedoms than toxic people want you to believe.
Be yourself, even if it's hoolahooping at 5am to relieve stress. You do you.
*And don't listen to American police, they are serial killers in costumes. They will not help you, you have to help yourself*
