Okay so I think I'm in love (with a boy) A VERY SEXY ONE! He rocks my world in a different way... like no one else ever has!
Doesn't being in love make you feel like you're on top of the world? So maybe I'm not truly in love... there's still a lot of getting to know each other but its certainly a good feeling when I think of him or get to see him. I've only been hardcore in love once before. My love life began with my ex boyfriend Mike he just touched a place of my heart that had never been touched. And so far he's the only one who's captured that part of it... and still sorta hangs on to it. Before him, though, all of my other relationships were just dull, perhaps puppy love relationships, that never truly mattered. No matter how many times I thought I was in love... hell i was even "engaged" once when I was 17 (i think) and I should've just listened to my parents when they told me he wasn't nearly good enough for me. You always think when you're young that when you're parents tell you something that they're full of shit... and then when you grow up and open your eyes to the real world, you realize how right they've been all along. I broke my Mama's heart when i dated my "ex fiance" and that break up was probably the best thing that ever happened to me... He tought me a lot about who I am and guided me through things... but that's all he was good for I guess... because even though we once said forever... When I met Mike only WEEKS after that breakup... I actually grew up... instead of being a little kid in a very naive relationship... I became a woman who fell in love with the most awesome guy!
But I think true love never dies. And i think I'll love him (MIKEY) until the day I die... and even though we haven't dated for nearly two years now... it makes me realize how special he was to me... and the beautiful thing about it is that we're still good friends. And of course, Leo... we dated for a little over a year and then mutually broke the relationship part of us off... but he was my best friend the whole time we dated... and I think we were always more so friends than we were lovers. Even though for a while ... things were like heaven. I hope that he's planning on sticking around for a while too...
But now there's someone new in my life...
On a completely different note... I just wanna say that Kelly, who is my best friend, is the most awesomest girl in the world. She just really knows how to be a good friend... and whenever I need her... she's there! She rocks...
And as for my last post... I asked if I shall name those experiences that stick out... the one that stands out the most... was a one nighter with a rock star.
It was totally off the hook and a very hot, intense evening... and what's awesome is that he emailed me the other day asking if we could get together soon. HAHA. I did the photography for his bands website... check them out .THE PRIMADONNAZ I had sex the guitarist, Dan. ;oP
He's a sweetheart though... can't wait to see him again. As for the other memories... the first time I got off from oral sex... WHOA... can't you say 10 orgasms in 1?!?!??? It was really intense... hense why it sticks out in my mind... and probably the last one that stands out is the first time Richie and I had sex...
Okay gotta get ready for bed... I usually use my cell phone as my alarm clock... and I had it on the charger last night but it wasn't plugged in right... the wire must have been loose... so anyway it died in the middle of the night and i was an hour late to work today... I didn't wake up until 1:30pm HAHA... so tonight I got a real alarm clock set plus my phone... JUST IN CASE!
Love you guys... you guys really know how to make me feel all fuzzy inside.
