Tuesday Feb 28, 2006

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ME AND MY B/F had a HUGE fight,

I am really really scared and I am hurt so bad. frown
I wish i just had one friend to tell or just someone to give me a hug and tell me it was gonna be okay (even if its a lie) frown
WE fight a lot, but we don't have MAJOR fights like this very often...
He has a trump card he uses in every fight "GO HOME" I live in his house and he says go back to Memphis.. I never know if he means it or not.

It would be more than a broken heart if he ever left me.. Every thing i own has something to do with him. I have tryed overdoses a lot. When i tryed with aspirin i got scared cause i felt really faint and funny and I took some of that nasty syrup that makes you throw up..

but i've been thinking about life without him, i don't wanna do it. that aspirn bottle looks pretty cool.

I can't believe i got into the situation where a man totally rules my life but i did. frown

Oh my gosh everyone, I am sooooo Sad and scared too skull
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bettyann:
I am so sorry about everything that is going on right now.
Pleaseknow that there are a lot of people that care about you and can offer you support and encouragment whenever you need it.
Hugs and kisses to you Sweetheart.
skzoid:
Time heals all wounds. Trust me I know. I have been through hell the last 2 years. There is probably a little info in my past journal entries. I don't post much because by the time I get here I have already told the story 20 times and i no longer have the energy to write it down. I did keep a private journal for over 2 years. Every day I wrote my daily escapades - good, bad, anything and everything. It getds the crap out of your head and onto paper/disc so you can think straight about reality. My other advice - GET THE FUCKING DRUGS OUT OF YOUR LIFE!!!!!!! They aren't helping anything. Even if it's just aspirin. Go to a coffee shop or a bookstore. I bet you will run into somebody. If all else fails, go to the bus station. He threatens you with it because he knows you won't do it. So do it. Then make him come crying back.

Oh, and a hug.

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