voodooapple

Hi folks i don't know,

I just uploaded almost the entire set I sent into SG to try and get in. I sent a few messages to a few folks hoping they would stop by because it took hours for me to upload them

I don't know how to be on SG, if I should be a fake person who has a life or if i should be my usual morose self.

I saw another entry with THINGS TO KNOW ABOUT ME, so i'll put some things I reckon.

I do nude modeling for the negative attention it brings. I never get paid. I have to travel a long way sometimes and I have strange men looking at me naked.

I portray someone who has just an enormous appetite for sex, but its not true. I have been with my boyfriend who is 18 years older than me for 4 years. During the 4 years i developed a condition called "vulvodynia" It means that the nerves which go into and around the vaginal area always burn, hurt,sting or itch. It has made intercourse impossible.

I am in a manougous (however you spell that) relationship and we haven't had intercourse in maybe as long as a year

It hurts me deeply that i can't give my boyfriend what he wants and needs, so I guess I try to make up for it with the nude pictures.

Lets see, I had ECT, in other words SHOCK therapy.. yes the one where they actually shock your brain for depression.

I take multiple depression and anxiety meds and I am also addited to painkillers. Morphine, Methadone, Oxycotin, Vicoden.. Theres nothing I can do.

When I was younger I started to self mutilate. I have scars all down both arms. I finally stopped after about 5 years. where i also would beat myself up (literally smack myself in the face or body or i would use a crowbar or a hammer)

Both my parents are dead, my dad passed when i was a teenager 17, my mom passed when i was 24

I have been in 4 mental hospitals during my lifetime,

AND I HAVE BAD GAS

I like shirley temple movies, CATS, i have seven. I love the brady bunch. I drive a toyota camry, black.

I haven't held down a job in my life (relatively) I have done a lot of volunteer work and i had some paying jobs at a couple of retail stores, but i haven't been able to work since 1999, so i just do the nude modeling.

I love horror movies, LIke Saw 2 was one of the best. I often imagine my enemies trapped In John's coolest death puzzles. LIke the facemask jaw breaker, or the barbed wire, or the drug needles amanda fell in.

I think wiping real blood on myself is sexy. I think ice cubes are sexy, I think forced sex is um sorta interesting.

OH AND THE PINK HAIR IN THE PICTURE, NOT MY OWN

Well, i am gonna go ahead and publish this, even though i know everyone will now think i'm nuts.. Oh well, thats just me i guess

OH YEAH! one good thing about me, I sponser a little girl in INdia for 26 bucks a month. Her name is meri and she is 13. I send her sticker books and hair ribbons sometimes. At least i am helping someone out. that seems cool