the plan for this weekend is to MOVE. if for whatever reason this doesn't happen, i will go postal. i feel like i've been waiting forever to move out to MI. it MUST happen i tell you. i need this chapter in my life to end, and the next to begin.
i think i've lost like 5lbs. this past week due to my lack of appetite. i try to eat, just because i know i should, but after a few bites i just feel gross. maybe it's from stress or anticipation, i don't know.
lately, i've been using alcohol as my means to deal. real great fucking idea. i'm a nutcase to begin with, i'm twice as bad drunk. and gawd knows i love the blacking out occasions. ohwell, it happens.
i wanted to finish up my tattoo before i leave, but that won't be going down. my head still isn't fully healed from the last session and i don't really have the money to spare anyway. i'll just make an appointment for when i come back to get my cats and the rest of my belongings, which will be within a month. hopefully.
and onto my cats, i hate that i will be leaving them here. eventhough it's only temporary, and i doubt they'll even miss me, i can't stand the idea of being away from them for more than a week. i feel like i'm abandoning them, which i know i'm not, but still.... GAH.
so, before the weekend comes, i need to do a massive cleaning of the house because it's dirty as fuck. i also need to figure out exactly what i will be taking with me and pack that shit up. i dont even know where to begin. i have SO much stuff. my clothes alone will probably overtake half of the van.
eh. so much to think about. so much to do. right now, i just feel like sleeping.
i think i've lost like 5lbs. this past week due to my lack of appetite. i try to eat, just because i know i should, but after a few bites i just feel gross. maybe it's from stress or anticipation, i don't know.
lately, i've been using alcohol as my means to deal. real great fucking idea. i'm a nutcase to begin with, i'm twice as bad drunk. and gawd knows i love the blacking out occasions. ohwell, it happens.
i wanted to finish up my tattoo before i leave, but that won't be going down. my head still isn't fully healed from the last session and i don't really have the money to spare anyway. i'll just make an appointment for when i come back to get my cats and the rest of my belongings, which will be within a month. hopefully.
and onto my cats, i hate that i will be leaving them here. eventhough it's only temporary, and i doubt they'll even miss me, i can't stand the idea of being away from them for more than a week. i feel like i'm abandoning them, which i know i'm not, but still.... GAH.
so, before the weekend comes, i need to do a massive cleaning of the house because it's dirty as fuck. i also need to figure out exactly what i will be taking with me and pack that shit up. i dont even know where to begin. i have SO much stuff. my clothes alone will probably overtake half of the van.
eh. so much to think about. so much to do. right now, i just feel like sleeping.
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I will try to talk piXilated101 into making split pea sometime.
That does sound tasty.
How are you doing? Did you leave New York yet?
If so, that stinks because I visit NY at least once a year (and I almost never go to Michigan).