i woke up this morning feeling like shit, my mind consumed with thoughts of him. now i know why i felt like so. i had an email from him awaiting me in my mailbox. it fucking kills me everytyme i read an email from him and everytyme i write him pretending that everything is fine and fucking dandy. i'm so disgusted by the fact that i allowed myself to get so close to him and to love him and to let him love me. i knew better, and now i'm even more disgusted because i can't fucking get over him and move on with my life. it's been 3 fucking months. i wish he were dead, and that's such a horrible thing to say. it would be so much easier to go on if i had to say goodbye to him because of death instead of the actual circumstances. UGH. today is just not a good day as far as my state of mind is concerned. 
i think you caterpillar story was by far the best pet storyy i got it made me giggle. i just figured out who the hell you are. im such a bood. i didnt recognize your foto, wellcome to sg honey!