vomitious

i'm utterly disenchanted with life. i feel as if i've lost interest in everything. nothing inspires me anymore, and when i rarely am inspired, i lack the energy and effort to act upon it. i used to write all the tyme. i used to draw or paint all the tyme. i used to put my creativity to use. now, it's just wasting away or already...
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motherfucking mah jong is rotting my brain away.
E-V-I-L. evil i tell you!

i think i'm dreaming. someone poke me.

i thought i was in control. i felt like i was in control. i thought i was better. i felt like i was better. nothing has changed. it's the same as before, like always. the old is the new. the new is the old. this neverending cycle. this unbreakable cycle. what is the use?

i haven't been too quick to update, but my life is quite boring and unentertaining... not to mention that like only 3 people read my journal entries and they all seem to have disappeared from SG land for awhile.
let's see... today was horrid... went jobhunting. BLEH! i fucking hate wasting tyme applying at places when i know i'm not gunna get a call-back. i...
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last nyte i had a very amusing dream, at least i find it amusing. remember the animated show "daria" on mtv? well, in my dream i WAS daria! all the other characters were there too! the dad was sitting on the couch watching sick sad world with trent, the mom was in the kitchen cooking, while jane set up a tripod in order to take...
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i don't know how to put all of this into words. i can't even grasp how to explain and articulate it all. the actual event was so heart-stopping. this entry will not do it justice, no words can.

it occurred around 11 am this very morning. i let the dog outside and decide to accompany him. it's cold. the snow is finally falling. i stand...
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aww valentine's day. what an insignificant holiday. eating chinese food and munching on chocolates is in the near future for me. exciting. anyway, i think i got a job, finally, and it's the job i've wanted for awhile now. rock n' roll. being an unemployed lazy bum gets old quite fast.

happy valentine's day kiddies!

i'm sick of the coldness that is outside my window. whenever i go outside, i shiver and my teeth chatter. i return inside with a snotty septum ring. i HATE snotty septum rings. all septum rings should be snot-free. snotty septum rings are as much fun as drinking orange juice after you brush your teeth.

i woke up this morning feeling like shit, my mind consumed with thoughts of him. now i know why i felt like so. i had an email from him awaiting me in my mailbox. it fucking kills me everytyme i read an email from him and everytyme i write him pretending that everything is fine and fucking dandy. i'm so disgusted by the fact that...
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i found this amusing because i'm easily amused...

so saturday, i slept all day. i woke up around 6 and put on some clothes. i searched through my drawers and found my shirt that says "i want to be an astronaut" and has a pitcure of the little astronaut floating above earth. i wander downstairs and turn on the tv. the news is on informing...
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