Good morning SG....... I need coffee...... I'll be back in 20 minutes...... 
Okay. I'm back...... I got my coffee......
I have to admit, coffee tastes best out of a pint glass.... I will settle for a paper cup, but I will also take that cup home, and pour it into a pint glass......
when was the last time I wrote? Hmmm. I have to look.... I'm not really awake yet.... Okay, It was tuesday......
Here's my week in review.....
tuesday night: I made dinner, and sat around. I did laundry. I made art. I watched the night grow deeper, and I completed my art project. I dreamed about finally having a sewing machine. I thought of all the rad stuff I could make with it, and how I would be the best dressed woman ever. all in all, It was a pretty chill night. I watched dangerous liasons for the millionth time......
wednesday: I had to work. It was okay, I guess. I was the only girl that showed up to work. So I hung out with the DJ, since she is cool. The night sucked, but It could have been alot worse. Sometimes I have to remember that It's inportant to be grateful for the things I do have, instead of focusing on the things I don't have.
thursday: My day off... I was supposed to go to the baech, But I had too much to do around my house, to prepare for my parent's comming on sat. so I stayed home, and did stuff around here..... I went to coffee later, and then spent another sleepless night reading.
Friday: I worked, and ran around trying to get shit done. But time was not on my side that day. not for one second. But I manged to survive. even though I didn't have a chance to bleach my hair, or shop for my dress for yesterdays shoot. I went to a meet and greet at SGHQ and met some of the other LA girls. It was cool seeing alice again. and I hadn't seen Claudia in over a year. and of course, It is always cool to see Sean. He rules. then I went to work after I left sean's.
satudrday: I got up super fucking early. My parents got here at about noon. I went shopping for a dress to tear up for yesterday, and I tinkered with the sewing machine my mom brought me. I'm really excited about making stuff on it! It's a better machine than I had expected. I'm super excited about it. It doesn't serge, but a zig zag will be fine untill I can get machine that does.... I also got my dress to tear for the shoot.
sunday... I went to the beach at topanga with my parents and walked the beach with my mom.... I marveled at the patterns the ocean leaves on the sand. It really felt like autumn that day. It was also kinda cold..... but it was worth it. I finally made it out to the beach.... I thought about alot of things that day. I have really had alot on my mind lately. almost everywhere I looked I saw people that were miserable or looked miserable. I wonder if anyone knows how to smile anymore. i've been noticing this alot lately. as a general rule people look either angry or sad in public. they don't even know that I'm watching. or that I actually care. my prents left after the beach, and I wished them well, while at the same time feeling bad, because the visit felt so rushed.... then I bleached my hair, and went to work.
Monday: shaved as close as I could, packed a shoot bag, and left for the shoot location. The shoot went really well, even though I had to hold poses for a LONG time. It was worth it. I'm really excited to see the pics. I think the set will be stunning after it is edited.... too bad you won't get to see the best pictures.... I found out last night that it would be illegal to publish them. shit, I just want copies of the extra shots we took. anyway, He really did a great job, and I'm excited to see the results. It ended up being really arty, and I think it will be great. I'm excited to work with him again, and do the original ideas that we had, which were all death shoots. I have to say, there is something very erotic about pretending to be a corpse..... anyway, I hope you like the shoot. Dave Navarro shot it. Yes, Dave Navarro the guitar dinosaur. He was great to work with and very nice. He is even hotter in person than in pictures.... anyway, he worked hard on the shoot, and was very cool, and easy going....
I went to bed aerly last night, beacuse I was pooped.... My body was tired from holding somewhat uncomfortable poses for longer than usual. I sat in a hot bath with vanilla scented candles, and amber incense for a long time. It was rad. I was pretty tired, so I just went to sleep. I dreamt bizzare dreams I can only rember fractions of.... they were all in shades of red and pink.... never the less, I woke up wodering what in the hell I was dreaming about this morning....
Today: I am cleaning around here, and I am hanging out with
Danielle tonight, and maxx too.....
I'm about halfway to North Carolina to see my brother before he gets sent to afghanistan. I still need peoplev to come get some lap dances from me. Email me at suicidevoltaire@yahoo.com, If you are interested in seeing a fantastic stage show, and recieving some of the best lapdances you will ever recieve. I only have untill the end of the month to come up with my plane fare. He gets sent out in january. I have to see him before he leaves. Of all my Five brothers He is my favorite. I would never forgive myself If He left with out me getting to see him, and he was killed over there. so yeah, shoot me an email, and I will give you the 411 on where I work, and all that jazz....
I have alot more to talk about, abut I'm gonna quit here since this is getting really long, and nobody really reads the whole journal entry anyway. I think most people just answer the questions.
take it easy.
xoxox-V.
- did you read this whole entry?
- what are you listening to right now?
- when was the last time you fucked? Sex with yourself does not count.
Okay. I'm back...... I got my coffee......
I have to admit, coffee tastes best out of a pint glass.... I will settle for a paper cup, but I will also take that cup home, and pour it into a pint glass......
when was the last time I wrote? Hmmm. I have to look.... I'm not really awake yet.... Okay, It was tuesday......
Here's my week in review.....
tuesday night: I made dinner, and sat around. I did laundry. I made art. I watched the night grow deeper, and I completed my art project. I dreamed about finally having a sewing machine. I thought of all the rad stuff I could make with it, and how I would be the best dressed woman ever. all in all, It was a pretty chill night. I watched dangerous liasons for the millionth time......
wednesday: I had to work. It was okay, I guess. I was the only girl that showed up to work. So I hung out with the DJ, since she is cool. The night sucked, but It could have been alot worse. Sometimes I have to remember that It's inportant to be grateful for the things I do have, instead of focusing on the things I don't have.
thursday: My day off... I was supposed to go to the baech, But I had too much to do around my house, to prepare for my parent's comming on sat. so I stayed home, and did stuff around here..... I went to coffee later, and then spent another sleepless night reading.
Friday: I worked, and ran around trying to get shit done. But time was not on my side that day. not for one second. But I manged to survive. even though I didn't have a chance to bleach my hair, or shop for my dress for yesterdays shoot. I went to a meet and greet at SGHQ and met some of the other LA girls. It was cool seeing alice again. and I hadn't seen Claudia in over a year. and of course, It is always cool to see Sean. He rules. then I went to work after I left sean's.
satudrday: I got up super fucking early. My parents got here at about noon. I went shopping for a dress to tear up for yesterday, and I tinkered with the sewing machine my mom brought me. I'm really excited about making stuff on it! It's a better machine than I had expected. I'm super excited about it. It doesn't serge, but a zig zag will be fine untill I can get machine that does.... I also got my dress to tear for the shoot.
sunday... I went to the beach at topanga with my parents and walked the beach with my mom.... I marveled at the patterns the ocean leaves on the sand. It really felt like autumn that day. It was also kinda cold..... but it was worth it. I finally made it out to the beach.... I thought about alot of things that day. I have really had alot on my mind lately. almost everywhere I looked I saw people that were miserable or looked miserable. I wonder if anyone knows how to smile anymore. i've been noticing this alot lately. as a general rule people look either angry or sad in public. they don't even know that I'm watching. or that I actually care. my prents left after the beach, and I wished them well, while at the same time feeling bad, because the visit felt so rushed.... then I bleached my hair, and went to work.
Monday: shaved as close as I could, packed a shoot bag, and left for the shoot location. The shoot went really well, even though I had to hold poses for a LONG time. It was worth it. I'm really excited to see the pics. I think the set will be stunning after it is edited.... too bad you won't get to see the best pictures.... I found out last night that it would be illegal to publish them. shit, I just want copies of the extra shots we took. anyway, He really did a great job, and I'm excited to see the results. It ended up being really arty, and I think it will be great. I'm excited to work with him again, and do the original ideas that we had, which were all death shoots. I have to say, there is something very erotic about pretending to be a corpse..... anyway, I hope you like the shoot. Dave Navarro shot it. Yes, Dave Navarro the guitar dinosaur. He was great to work with and very nice. He is even hotter in person than in pictures.... anyway, he worked hard on the shoot, and was very cool, and easy going....
I went to bed aerly last night, beacuse I was pooped.... My body was tired from holding somewhat uncomfortable poses for longer than usual. I sat in a hot bath with vanilla scented candles, and amber incense for a long time. It was rad. I was pretty tired, so I just went to sleep. I dreamt bizzare dreams I can only rember fractions of.... they were all in shades of red and pink.... never the less, I woke up wodering what in the hell I was dreaming about this morning....
Today: I am cleaning around here, and I am hanging out with
Danielle tonight, and maxx too.....
I'm about halfway to North Carolina to see my brother before he gets sent to afghanistan. I still need peoplev to come get some lap dances from me. Email me at suicidevoltaire@yahoo.com, If you are interested in seeing a fantastic stage show, and recieving some of the best lapdances you will ever recieve. I only have untill the end of the month to come up with my plane fare. He gets sent out in january. I have to see him before he leaves. Of all my Five brothers He is my favorite. I would never forgive myself If He left with out me getting to see him, and he was killed over there. so yeah, shoot me an email, and I will give you the 411 on where I work, and all that jazz....
I have alot more to talk about, abut I'm gonna quit here since this is getting really long, and nobody really reads the whole journal entry anyway. I think most people just answer the questions.
take it easy.
xoxox-V.
- did you read this whole entry?
- what are you listening to right now?
- when was the last time you fucked? Sex with yourself does not count.
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- warm air blowing from the vent behind me, and machinery rattling around inside. windchimes. the static hum of this computer (it almost sounds like music). the vent just stopped. now i can hear a clock ticking. the touch of my own fingers on the keyboard. the cat crunching on food. no, that wasn't the cat, it must have been something else. now i hear myself chewing a praline from savannah.
- sunday night, with my roommate. it's a big secret, so please don't tell our other roommates. we fear it would make things awkward. i didn't get enough sleep, but that was my own fault. i believe he got enough Sleep though. oooh, terrible pun, someone slap me.