voltaire

I seem to always talk about food when I have nothing else to talk about. Not because I'm starving, but because It's some thing I know so well, and I'ts something everyone can relate to. last night I experimented with different cream sauces, and discovered that I really need a blender. My food proccessor just isn't going to cut it. I also need my knives sharpened. I talked to Sicily last night, and that was cool. I also talked to Fractal for a little bit and then Missed her call when she called me back becuase my phone was on vibrate and I didn't hear it.

It's really nice here today. I hear it is supposed to rain tomorrow. I really hope it doesn't.

I haven't been to the beach in a few months now. I think that's why I am so run down. I think a trip to the beach is an order for this week. Or I may go crazy. well not really, But you know what I mean....All I do is run around like crazy. even though I have my days free, I usually find something to occupy that time too; whether it's cleaning something, or organizing something else. I'm not obsessive compulsive, I'm just bored. I want something new. I want a new challenge. I want a change. I work myself to the bone, and I have nothing to show for it. I am exausted. and maybe a little depressed. sometimes It's hard not to be human. Sometimes It's hard to be me. But I still have to put on my smile and go to work tonight. If I make enough money, I'm taking some time off to visit Sicily, and Fractal.....

I have been working on my burlesque piece. It really is more burlesque than it is anything else. I started taking some dance classes too. I haven't taken Jazz dance since High school. I'm glad to be going back to it. I found a great class that is only ten bucks. I'm always happy when I get out of class or after I've rented a private studio.... maybe I should start going more often......maybe I just feel like this because I feel bogged down.... Or maybe It's the season..... Or maybe my perioid is late(no I'm not preggo) and I'm being dramatic.... Ding!

I'm thinking about trying another club. another dive. I need to call them and then go down and check them out. It might be fun. who knows. I think it is an actual bar too so it's only topless.....

I can't wait to get my sewing machine. I have alot of Ideas that are way too big for had sewing. the can-can outfit I made by hand last summer took forever. I could have started and finished it in a week if I had a machine.

well, I'm gonna bail for now... maybe I'll just start bleeding already, and all these hormones will go away. Yuck. that was probably too much information....

xoxox-V.

- should I finally just post a wish list?
- what is your favorite color lately? black white or grey does not count.
- what is your favorite article of clothing to wear?