voltaire

Ugh, It's hot again today. It's time to crank the AC....

Good morning SG. I just woke up. I'm sore and tired. and I wish I didn't have to work tonight. But I kinda always wish that . One day I won't dance for a living anymore, I'll only dance for fun, like one day a week. My dream job is to be a personal chef. That would rock.

I'll post the shells recipe tomorrow. I thginktraditionally shells are stuffed with ricotta, but I can't remember. I know that traditionally manicotii is stuffed w/ricotta, and cannelloni is stuffed with meat.... the recipe for shell that I made up calls for meat.

I'm going to adition at some different clubs this week. I'm gonna try out a place near staples center, and a place out on the west side. I hope my dancing ablity is enough to get me hired. I have no Idea what they are gonna say about my hair or tattoos.

spaeking of my hair, I really want to cut it off. Like in the most major way, but I am terrified of having short hair.... I have had dreads for almost six years now. I know that is nothing compared to some people, but today it feels like forever. I'm a little of the opinion that the fact I want to cut it off Is all the more reason not to. and then the other part of me says to just grab the scissors.....

I'm really bummed out about the fcat that I'm going to have to start making some of my journal entries members only. there's someone that's been reading my journal that is not a member that once printed one of my old entries out and showed it certain people and even had the audacity to say that she had contacted the webmaster(sean) and gotten my real name from him, which I know is a lie. A big lie. Sean would never give my personal info out. she knew my real name I had told her once. So I have to start making my journal members only for a while. and I wish I didn't have to, because I tell people that I meet at work that they can read my jounal for free on this site, and they usually end up becoming members that way. so until she stops acting like a complete hoebag to me, that's the way it has to be.

I've lost alot of weight. almost ten pounds. I keep waiting to gain it back, but I haven'y seen it in almost a month now, and my diet is nowhere even close to low fat, or low carb. I'm down to 110 pounds. the same weight I was before My grandfather died five years ago.
In fact I'm really going through alot of life changes right now, and although it has been really hard sometimes, I don't know that I've ever been happier. Times are tough, but I just want to do the right thing. To be the best person I can be In any and every situation. It's very hard to do this sometimes. I fall short alot. But I am trying. I guess this Isn't really making sense to you anymore.... It's okay, I'm just rambling really. It's not anything colossal, really.

I've been reading alot lately. I'd really like to get my hads on Plato's Republic. and as borring as this might sound, I'd like to try to tackle Homer's Illiad, and Odessy. I heard they were borring. I want to try to read them anyway, just to see. I'd also like to read Hesse's Journey to the east again.... sadly, I don't have a copy as of late. I gave my last one away....It was to a good person though.

I feel like I really just need to go to the beach. I feel spent, and i want to go walk the beach for miles and think.....

well, I'm sure I could ramble on all day. But I have to get off the coputer soon, and do something productive with my day.....

have a wonderful and marvelous day.

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-where did you grow up?
-where are you now?
- where would you like to be? (bonus question)
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