voltaire

Hey you guys, what,s up? Not much here. another week has come and gone, and once again, time has flown by me in a jumbled up, chaotic blur. My week was about as exciting as cleaning the bathroom tiles with a tooth brush. I think the most remotely exciting thing that happened this week was the bartender at Cocktails and Dreams being fed up with me because I won't fuck him, so he refused to call me a cab after close on Friday night. I ended up accepting aride from a customer that I don't know fom shit. A VERY, VERY, VERY dangerous thing to do. But I really didn't have much choice, my house is a long way from that club. Anyway, I ended up fine(thank god). I'm cutting it down to one shift aweek at Viewpoint. I just don't make money there,and while every one wants to talk to me, no one wants to pay me on stage.So, consequently, I only work Wednesday from 9-close. Thursday, Friday, and Saturday I work at Cocktails from 9-close.
Iv'e been exauhsted lately, and still don't sleep well. My body is killing me and i can't afford a massage, but I wish Icould. I really need it . I also wish i could sleep, but i'm too stressed out about money lately. One of my room mates moved out, so rent and bills are becomming harder to come up with. By the way, sad but true, I'm probably never going to be able to return anyone's e-mail. ( but not because I don't want to) As some of you already know, I don't have a computer, and it looks like I'm never going to because I just can't afford it . Not for at least a year and a half. I have too much other shit to pay for . I still love recieving everyone's e-mails though. If youv'e got a question, I'll try to answer it in my weekly journal entry that we all know isn't so weekly. Sometimes ican't even make it down here to SGHQ to write ajournal entry. For every one out there that thinks I get tons of mail, that's actually not true. In fact , almost no one writes me. It makes me think nobody likes me ...... I guess I'll go eat worms.....fuck it.
For the person who asked if I would ever possibly be attracted to someone that didn't look anything like me, the answer is : OF COURSE. Iv'e dated LOTS of people that didn't look athing like me at all. In fact they looked quite conservative; you know like executive style , and they were extremly nice people. I'm like Prince: you don't have to be rich to be my girl(guy ) , you don'y have to be "cool" to rule my world......I didn't lie in my SG bio; INTELLIGENCE really is what gets me interested.No joke. Besides, who wants to date a cute boy with no brain?.....BORING...... not me. the only thing cute airheads are good for is..... well, I'm sure you already know.....
Anyway, so,then....you probably guessed that I'm back in Portland. We had aclothes swap last week here at SGHQ. I think I wound up with the best stuff. That kinda makes me feel bad because I didn't bring anything to trade. All my stuff is still in my friend's garge in the Bay Area. So, the next time I'm at home in Cali, I'm gonna grab some stuff and get missy to organize another one . I'v'e got tons of stuff that I'm not wearing.
So I guess Spooky and Missy Put a movie of me up on the site. I saw some of the clips for it . Dude, I sound like the world's biggest dork on those clips, I can't beleive they put that up. Give me some feedback and let me know what you think. By the way I can handle it if you say I'm a dork, after all I just said I was.......
I,m running out of cool shit to write about, so I'm gonna jet. would anyone out there be interested in trading kithchen recipes? I love to cook and I'm very good, so let me know. Untill then, I hope all is well in everyone's universe. take care. xoxoxoxoxo, Love ,Voltaire