volkov

why caaaaan't I sleeeeeeeep!

there's probably a million reasons. I've not kept at all a normal sleep schedule/cycle since I've been off active military duty. I stay up all hours sleeping a few hours here and there. I drink coffee every minute I'm awake. And I never want to rest. I enjoy sleep and luxuriating in bed being lazy but I also want to spend every minute working on photos and reading and studying languages and playing on the computer, being on the internet, talking with friends, riding the motorcycle, working out, swimming....everything! everything! everything!
maybe it's because I didn't get to do any of those things for a year. I don't know. I just have no structure to my time. most of it's been centered around a few particular things and people.

but still. I can recognise that I NEED to sleep. I've been feeling run down and turned outsideinsidesideways for a few days now.

anyhow. I need to make another attempt at this whole "rest" thing. I really don't think it's gonna work though.

and just because I can't get them out of my head here is

1) my favorite fortune cookie ever! I carry it around in my wallet because it makes me laugh whenever I see it.




and this song is stuck in my head on repeat tonight.

i'm always wanting more
anything i haven't got
everything
i want it all
i just can't stop
planning all my days away
but never finding ways to stay
or ever feel enough today
tomorrow must be more
drink more dreams more bed more drugs
more lust more lies more head more love
more fear more fun more pain more flesh
more stars more smiles more fame more sex
but however hard i want
i know deep down inside
i'll never really get more hope
or any more time
any more time
any more time
any more time

i want the sky to fall in
i want lightning and thunder
i want blood instead of rain
i want the world to make me wonder
i want to walk on water
take a trip to the moon
give me all this and give me it soon
more drink more dreams more drugs
more lust more lies more love
but however hard i want
i know deep down inside
i'll never really get more hope
or any more time
any more time
any more time
any more time
"want" the Cure