volkov

not really sure what to say here at 5am....tired and inebriated.

my thanksgiving mostly sucked. I worked almost all of thanksgiving day until about 845pm. I was supposed to get the next day off, but worked screwed that up and called me in at 730am. but I did manage to get off in time to go to my mother's family's thanksgiving get together, which was a bit overwhelming.....as family gatherings tend to be..but pleasant.

then down to San Antonio. it's a bit frightening. my grandmother has gone from occasional slips of the mind to bordering on batshit insanity in a very short period of time....I can't even talk to her anymore.
my dad looks older than an old old man. he's trying really hard to keep fighting this crap that is eating him up inside out, but even he can only take so much. too much goiing on.

anyway. ugh. drunk. stayed up with friends drinking over games of Cranium and Taboo and such. get my mind elsewhere...and even in that..in my stress I get overcompetitive and jerkish at moments. it's strange....you can see yourself doing it from a removed perspective and yet you barrel on through with the petulant looks and borish posturing...or rather I do. I'm lucky....and thankful for good...and tolerant friends....so very few of them, but that works better for me.

I need to get to sleep....gotta cover some ground tomorrow and get ready for three weeks of constant busyness. just feels like I don't really sleep anymore...cause I dont




edit at 10am to add. Life isn't all bad. My team totally dominated at the board games and much hilarity was had. wasn't moping as much as this makes it seem. actually with all the yelling and trash talking over things like blindfolded pictionary and trying to hum the tune to Rock you LIke a Hurricaine for the win it's a wonder that the neighbors never called the cops to try to quiet us. good times as well as bad. aaaaaaaaaaaand...I'm going back to sleep.