I dont even know how much I weigh right now but with the assumption that I probably gained weight at the end of 09 and lost some during my cleanse, I would say that I need to lose about 50 pounds this year
Here's the problem though. I cant find the motivation anymore because when I finally do, I KNOW I wont stick to it. I've been trying to lose weight since I was 13 and have been on and off, WHICH IS HORRIBLE!!!!!!!! I have no idea what to do anymore. I dont believe myself when I say I'm going to start a diet anymore, because I've been through it more then a million times. I was doing so well from Feb-June 2009 going to the gym and all (I wasnt losing a lot though) but mass chaos happened at my old job and apartment and with the stress of thinking im going to be sued I couldnt find time to go, and cant get back into the habit of going to the gym like I used to. I'm a dance teacher and I'm very active, I only allow organic food in my apartment and dont have the money to go out and eat or splurge on buying junk food for the apartment, but for the last 9 years I've struggled with this ONE STUPID THING, my weight. I dont know what I'm doing wrong. I dont know if im just cursed to be miserable all my life seeing myself in pictures, or trying to find the right clothes that hide things I dont want people to see, or even never being able to wear a bathing suit when I go to the beach in the summer. I'm all out of ideas and motivation. I dont believe in myself anymore. Im just starting to believe it worthless to even try.
WOW! Where did that rant come from...?
Here's the problem though. I cant find the motivation anymore because when I finally do, I KNOW I wont stick to it. I've been trying to lose weight since I was 13 and have been on and off, WHICH IS HORRIBLE!!!!!!!! I have no idea what to do anymore. I dont believe myself when I say I'm going to start a diet anymore, because I've been through it more then a million times. I was doing so well from Feb-June 2009 going to the gym and all (I wasnt losing a lot though) but mass chaos happened at my old job and apartment and with the stress of thinking im going to be sued I couldnt find time to go, and cant get back into the habit of going to the gym like I used to. I'm a dance teacher and I'm very active, I only allow organic food in my apartment and dont have the money to go out and eat or splurge on buying junk food for the apartment, but for the last 9 years I've struggled with this ONE STUPID THING, my weight. I dont know what I'm doing wrong. I dont know if im just cursed to be miserable all my life seeing myself in pictures, or trying to find the right clothes that hide things I dont want people to see, or even never being able to wear a bathing suit when I go to the beach in the summer. I'm all out of ideas and motivation. I dont believe in myself anymore. Im just starting to believe it worthless to even try.
WOW! Where did that rant come from...?
It sounds like you have the right eating plan.
Just watch portion sizes. Eat something tiny but nutrious every 2 hours. That will boost your metabolism and your body will be forced to start burning off fat.
And try getting decent cardio everyday. At least 30 minutes w an elevated heart rate.
Its a tough road but you've gotta have the will power and perserverance. You can do it tho good luck.