vixennyx

Man I was getting tired of looking at that entry...
I had a few people I know put up a fuss about the last one, worrying and complaining that I was fucking my life up.
Well I was, but what they didn't realize was all I have had going on in my life, in my head.
The hardest part was getting out of it.
But regardless- things are better now. Well from the perspective of responsibility.
I started school again, more volunteering , I work 5 nights (although every chance I get I head downtown to apply for a new job- this one is hazardous to my health and sanity), Covin started kindergarten (yes I cried), and another session of ballet.
I'm so busy I only get about 2 hours of sleep a night, so that leaves me no time to get in trouble.
And also less time to contemplate my loneliness.
But my outlook has brightened. I've been re-awakened to the urgency to take as much advantage of the brief period of time we are all given to live.
I finally let him go.
Not by choice.
But there is no moving on by holding on.
Sometimes I feel I'm better off accepting my condemnation of solitary confinement in love.
Covin is beautiful.
She got her first loose tooth her first week of school.
She had her first rock star experience singing onstage with Lennon in Wisconsin.
She has got to be the coolest 5 year old alive.
I took her to the Rennaissance Faire yesterday. We both dressed up as fairy princesses, and had people taking pictures of us everywhere we went.
It makes my stomach turn to think of where I would be with out her...
My sunshine...
I should probably do some homework and get my zombie ass to bed.
I love you all...
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Nyx