Here goes, I thought it was probably time I did my first journal entry 
Ive just recently moved to the Gold Coast. My husband and I decided to move here for a life style change.
I havent been able to get any work yet. I only want to work part time and to do something easy. What I really want to do is work in a bar or nightclub.
I start my bar course in 13 days, I cant wait. I feel as though that will be the start to my new life and to the rediscovery of who I am, the real me. You see I feel as though I have lost myself over the last four and half years - since Ive been married. I guess I became someone im not but also someone I dident like very much.
I cant blame anyone but myself, I think I was trying to prove myself to everyone as they all said I was to young to get married, so I became very serious and 'mature', and worked hard to prove myself at work etc. Life became all about working a job I hated just to pay the mortgage and the bills and just to survive.
The price I paid was losing myself. Thats why Ive moved to the Gold Coast, I want to be me again, to have fun and be young, no responsibility.
This is the start to the new me, the real me and the begining to a new life.
Anyway, I will keep you updated as to how things are going
Ive just recently moved to the Gold Coast. My husband and I decided to move here for a life style change.
I havent been able to get any work yet. I only want to work part time and to do something easy. What I really want to do is work in a bar or nightclub.
I start my bar course in 13 days, I cant wait. I feel as though that will be the start to my new life and to the rediscovery of who I am, the real me. You see I feel as though I have lost myself over the last four and half years - since Ive been married. I guess I became someone im not but also someone I dident like very much.
I cant blame anyone but myself, I think I was trying to prove myself to everyone as they all said I was to young to get married, so I became very serious and 'mature', and worked hard to prove myself at work etc. Life became all about working a job I hated just to pay the mortgage and the bills and just to survive.
The price I paid was losing myself. Thats why Ive moved to the Gold Coast, I want to be me again, to have fun and be young, no responsibility.
This is the start to the new me, the real me and the begining to a new life.
Anyway, I will keep you updated as to how things are going
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aeryn:
Oh god you sound like me... except that your only 22 and i didnt realize what i had done until i was 32 or so. But even now i still have fun and feel young. ALl hope is not lost
commonman:
Yes, welcome. You are not the only one feeling like life has become a drudgery of work and bills. Loke aeryn, it took me a long time to realize that I was just wasting time. Just let that new you out, and let us know how it goes.