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Happy to hear you happy.

Good luck with your work search. After nearly 2 years of being mostly-unemployed, I know well how much it sucks. I don't blame you for passing up the letter carrier job, though. Lugging mail around at 5am? Yuck!

'Ello adorable one. You thick - NEVER. It will happen. Yeah back for now not sure for how long though, but I know where you & the boy are so no worries. Love you, Miss you Micro Toys Micro Toys Micro all the way *sings happily as she goes off to bed byes*

Rare penny always appearing in unexpected places You around this weekend? Miss you & the boy want to see you

they are healing as can be expected i guess...

am thinking of taking them out though as i feel so vulnerable with them in. its hard to explain and i don't really like feeling like such a wimp. so am having a few days to think about it.

There will be two entries.

First, you and Ant are the greatest - thank you so much for everything. I feel like I'm starting to get to know you both a bit aside from the video stuff and as you say it is cool to find 'nice' people (with whips and Tommy Guns etc) to hang out with. We shall see what the future holds.

I'm excited about the vid, my DV tape (which I need to get to The Boy) hs some great stuff itself so Ant's should be most excellent.

Thank you.
Thank you.Thank you.Thank you.
Thank you.

HKS

She keeps looking at me in the reflection of the train window, thinking I'm not onto that old Chestnut. I even go so far as to stare straight into her eyes, but her blue smoke and mirrors trick seemes to only work on one direction. Hers. She actually thinks I'm looking out the window as the midlands and their green, lamb-filled fields fly past.

I turn back to my magazine and flick to a page that has singles ads and open it face up on the little train table, reading intently. If this isn't a signal, nothing is. I like this game of cat and mouse. I sometimes play it on the tube.

One time on the way to meet Igor in Mile End one of these encounters culminated in her basically standing close to me and rubbing her arse agains my thigh and crotch. We never made eye contact. After two stations she bolted off the train and all the way up the stairs at Whiechapel and I couldn't get the image of a doe fleeing into the forest from my mind. That was fun.

Sometimes it goes nowhere at all, the fear of the new or the thrill of the chase beaten down by the what if's of modern life and the culture of not speaking to strangers, let alone neighbours.

Escalators as well -- the long stare, the eye contact, the smile. Fun, but seldom works.

Nicky says my game is outrageous and I am a flirt. I think it's like a social experiment. Observing human psychology. Seeking how strong is the desire for contact and intimacy - and can it overcome all the social and personal fears - and why - and who does and who doesn't.

Then again, sometimes they are in fact just looking out the window.

Gleep!

You knows it

I'm keeping it stored in a jar next to me I thought mine could do with some company We look good in the vid - in fact we look awesome

haha awesome

Huh? I don't think i have ever had many ambitions, but then i look at it in another light and i've hundreds and they change by the hour.

Hello BTW!

you don't know me but i would say do it. I faffed, farted around and meandered through mediocrity and what ifs for ages then one day just decided to go for it, best thing i ever did.

As for things still to be done, probably going to ride a motorbike from Texas all the way south through central america, no time limits, no schedules. Aiming at winter 2005 until...

I hate coming home.


but I just read your mail...

Where are you? Kidnapped by a crazed film-maker & held in a place where pigeons go die?

Awww sweety. I hope that things work out ok for you. There was a lot of unecessary childishness going on in Cardiff. Maybe it was a full moon?? I dunno. I hope that there were some parts of the evening at least that were good for you.

I have been thinking about going anonymous, but to try and sort out my studies. I don't think I can though. I know I would just end up switching back and forth between public and anonymous, cos I am so weak willed!!!

If you wanna chat, or meet up for coffee/sushi some time, gimme a call/email/smoke signal and I'll be there.

Lots of love and hugs and kisses.

No more job stress! CLICKY!
Love n swishi hugs back

i am coming along tonight now...
i am weak...

got my post op on the 31st - and i should be able to put my nipple rings back in in a couple more days so everything should be settled by then...hopefully!