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So it looks like they are sending my dad home with hospice...his body is rejecting the dialysis and there is nothing more the hospital can do for him. It won't be much longer before his body poisons its self. I have to figure out how to afford this trip. I am already trying to sell my drums...I just don't think I can bring myself to sell my guitar. I may have to sell my Mac Ibook too. I am hating this. I can't ask my parents (mom and stepdad) for help because he is not working right now because he has to have surgery. I am really really sinking. I can't shake this horrible mood. I thought it was the drinking putting me in this stupid mood....nope..It's life putting me in this stupid mood. Ugh..can I please get some relief..let's recap real quick...
A) Had to quit my job because of stupid people and made up stories
B) My father is dieing a slow and painful death.
C) The girl that makes me feel like I can do anything in the world is 2063 miles away.
D) I still have NO JOB!!!
E) I don't know how I am going to afford going home to see my dad before he dies
F) I want to run away to California and never ever look back.
Ok..so there is my recap..any questions???

I just feel like the world is falling in on me. All around me. Just a few months ago I had the world on a string..now the world has me by the short hairs and is slinging me around. What is the point?? Honestly..what is the point?