I've been battling this horribleness since I came back from Iraq. My mother's death just made it worse. I feel like shit sometimes, other times, I feel on top of the world. The smallest things can set me off. For example, I got made fun of by someone for the shear fact that I don't watch "Game of Thrones." I'm aware that it's a popular show, but I think because that "everyone's watching it," it drives me to not want to. It keeps me away from conversations and keeps me alone, which is what I like and hate simultaneously. I don't understand it. I don't think I want to understand it. It's weird how I can stand among a huge crowd of people, yet feel like I'm absolutely isolated. Few people will get this, and the fact that not many people read anything from me on here is my best only release.
