reality is a bitch. this year. so sad, this unfinished product cant be put to the side it needs to be completed so i can move on. sometimes i think if i had bought camera equipment instead of jeep parts and every time i wrenched on my jeep i was out taking pictures, how far ahead in life with my career would i be? a whole lot f arther than now. <p>
im trying to get back into school but its gonna kill me financially. im really afraid that i wont be able to support my sone or pay for my house, yeah wtf is a 27 year old doing with a house? better than paying rent but not as good as living at home for free. its gonna be tuff but i know it can be done, fuck, people do it all the time. the key is me finding a flexible job that pays. impossible yeah i know. in hindsight i see my life going downhill when i bought my first jeep and then even more when i became deeply involved with my babies momma back before i knocked her ass up. looking back i can see it all unraveling and its sad to be able to pinpoint where i started to fail. i dont understand how i let something like vehicles, namely jeeps, hold me down for so many years. if i never bought that first one, where would i be in life? if i hadnt bought this second one i know for a fact id have 8000 bucks more. fuck i cant even afford to buy cd's anymoreand i cused to atleast buy one a week plus see 5 or more shows a month. how lame am i now. how far in life are jeeps gonna get me? y am i not putting my time and money into a hobby that can turn into a career. i cant make no money off goin in the woods and breaking my jeep all to hell, only to return, fix it, and repeat. reality has bitch slapped me and now im dissapointed in myself. correcting this is gonna be a real bitch. i hope i can do it.
im trying to get back into school but its gonna kill me financially. im really afraid that i wont be able to support my sone or pay for my house, yeah wtf is a 27 year old doing with a house? better than paying rent but not as good as living at home for free. its gonna be tuff but i know it can be done, fuck, people do it all the time. the key is me finding a flexible job that pays. impossible yeah i know. in hindsight i see my life going downhill when i bought my first jeep and then even more when i became deeply involved with my babies momma back before i knocked her ass up. looking back i can see it all unraveling and its sad to be able to pinpoint where i started to fail. i dont understand how i let something like vehicles, namely jeeps, hold me down for so many years. if i never bought that first one, where would i be in life? if i hadnt bought this second one i know for a fact id have 8000 bucks more. fuck i cant even afford to buy cd's anymoreand i cused to atleast buy one a week plus see 5 or more shows a month. how lame am i now. how far in life are jeeps gonna get me? y am i not putting my time and money into a hobby that can turn into a career. i cant make no money off goin in the woods and breaking my jeep all to hell, only to return, fix it, and repeat. reality has bitch slapped me and now im dissapointed in myself. correcting this is gonna be a real bitch. i hope i can do it.
