visionfromacrash

"It's not only the most difficult thing to know one's self, but the most inconvenient."-Josh Billings

I believe everyone needs their own delusions, and maybe SG is mine. I'd like to believe that my self-deceptions are thinly veiled and superficial. As of late, I'm not so sure. Not that I mean to offend, but what defines the people on my buddy lists, or on lj, or my phone, or SG, etc. as friends? I admit wholeheartedly that I am open about certain (possibly offensive) things, though my justification for such openness is the dissociation and detatchment I feel from normal life.

Maybe that's my delusion: No one gets hurt if you aren't "in the world."

I'd like to see myself as deep, and see those of you who read this as friends, not enemies-in-waiting, or interested parties. You'll forgive me my fears, won't you?

I want to know-who am I? Constantly, I feel as if I don't know. I don't identify with the face in the mirror. I did for a while, but that ended all too quick.

Everyone needs to face facts eventually.

"The first and the best victory is to conquer self."-Plato

There are things I keep from everyone, even those who are as close to me as skin. Regardless of how much I may want to say something.

You'll still like me, won't you?

A beat for a beat, they said
You'll get Orpheus, the dream boy
And he'll give life to the dead

Not mine...but kind of a take on Francesca Lia Block.