I don't really know what I'm looking for. I know I've found part of it in Scott. I'm so incredibly happy with him.
I miss home. I miss my old friends. I miss maryland. I miss the cold weather and having to put on gloves to go outside. I miss college park.
But everyone is going or has gone theri seperate ways. Blunck's at the FBI and his life has changed so much I feel like he's a stranger, I miss his security. DrewDrago is off in b-more doing his thing. I miss his witty remarks and funny smile. Mike and Kathy are still together, living in Phili, which seems to be the only thing that remains the same. I miss them....I miss their drama. I miss Dave, the big politician. I miss our little family. I miss being able to go down the hall and see them all there... at least I was the first to leave, at least I didn't have to watch it all disapear from me like Blunck and Kathy did.
I miss my Mom and her cooking... And her face, and her advice and mostly her hugs and smell. I miss my brother, Jesse, who has also had to watch it all disapear...our little family unit all in different places now....and with different people. I miss Jesse's humor and laugh.
I've been here a year...it feels like home in Tampa. I have Les. I definately have Scotty....I have Andrew and everyone else that I know cares about me. It's hard to not miss the way things were. I wish I could take parts of my life back home and intergrate them with parts from my life here. Things I'd keep...things I'd throw out without looking back.
August always depresses me and makes me think. I want it to be cold. I want it to snow on the palm trees here. I want a big change and I want everything to stay the exact same way.
My mom always said the way to make yourself happy is to give back to others...by volunteering your time and life to them. I can't wait to do just that.
Dinner time....maybe I'll actually cook something....I feel like I need to cook something tastey.
I miss home. I miss my old friends. I miss maryland. I miss the cold weather and having to put on gloves to go outside. I miss college park.
But everyone is going or has gone theri seperate ways. Blunck's at the FBI and his life has changed so much I feel like he's a stranger, I miss his security. DrewDrago is off in b-more doing his thing. I miss his witty remarks and funny smile. Mike and Kathy are still together, living in Phili, which seems to be the only thing that remains the same. I miss them....I miss their drama. I miss Dave, the big politician. I miss our little family. I miss being able to go down the hall and see them all there... at least I was the first to leave, at least I didn't have to watch it all disapear from me like Blunck and Kathy did.
I miss my Mom and her cooking... And her face, and her advice and mostly her hugs and smell. I miss my brother, Jesse, who has also had to watch it all disapear...our little family unit all in different places now....and with different people. I miss Jesse's humor and laugh.
I've been here a year...it feels like home in Tampa. I have Les. I definately have Scotty....I have Andrew and everyone else that I know cares about me. It's hard to not miss the way things were. I wish I could take parts of my life back home and intergrate them with parts from my life here. Things I'd keep...things I'd throw out without looking back.
August always depresses me and makes me think. I want it to be cold. I want it to snow on the palm trees here. I want a big change and I want everything to stay the exact same way.
My mom always said the way to make yourself happy is to give back to others...by volunteering your time and life to them. I can't wait to do just that.
Dinner time....maybe I'll actually cook something....I feel like I need to cook something tastey.