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Thursday Oct 16, 2008

Oct 16, 2008
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what the fucking fuck? frown

jesus christ. i hate not being able to speak my mind. having to second guess every little thing...really kills me.

evidently "i come on too strong" and maybe this will ruin yet another relationship for me. puke

i have been in steady relationships too long, i don't even know what it is like to "date casually" and "not get involved too fast." i have never had to do these things. i don't WANT to do them now, either! i feel like i am floating in space, like all my breath was pulled from my body, only to be followed by my lungs and digestive system.

getting cruelly dumped (more than once, i might add) was horrible, but now...i am finding singleness to be just as bad. with no end in sight. shocked

whhhhy can't i be myself?

guys are just giving me a HUGE mind fuck right now. and with all this in mind, i have to go on a date with him tomorrow. my "coming on too strong" was saying that he gave me something to fantasize about while i sit at my hopelessly boring job all day. i didn't ask to fucking marry him, or anything! what is wrong with me? i figured he might be flattered! surreal
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paxton:
You can fantasize about me any time hun..... wink

All I can say is be yourself and if he can't handle it then he is not the guy for you. After being married for 11 years then devoiced I had to go through the same thing.
Oct 17, 2008
mark_plus_beer:
i share your pain , after several relationships , im single and everytime i think i might a girl that it will work with , things end too quickly
Oct 18, 2008

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