ahh the pleasures of skipping a day at work...
it just so happened that i did not wake up under my own power this morning. those of you that know me well probably know it was because of my diabetes. my blood sugar got to around 20 and i was in effect, unconscious and did not wake up. times like these call for an emercency glucagon shot, which, even though he only gave me 1/4 of the dosage and it woke me up in under 10 minutes, it still has the unfortunate side effect of making me quite sick to my stomach.
yuck. this has happened several times in the last 2 weeks, i didn't need the emergency shot every time, but still seriously low...it really scares me. it really scares him too, obviously. i am tired of scaring him like this, it's not fair. i love him very much! FYI: you can't be with me and have a phobia of needles, for very long, at least. 
so...i ended up not going in to work. i don't want to sit there when i am feeling 100% and i damn sure don't want to sit there when i am feeling downright ill. it's just not worth it for my health. and i hate my job
but don't worry, i am gong to the doctor tomorrow. it is my least favorite thing on the planet to do, but i am going. taking care of myself has taken a backseat to everything else in my life, and i know that has to change.
writing about it is so easy, it makes so much sense...but doing it is another thing entirely.
give me some advice, people.
#1 exercise - the mental health issue over my body image is key for me. i simply detest how i look in clothing, and being complimented all the time doesn't seem to help. satisfaction comes from within...i must exercise to realize my ideal self. or go crazy. so it's exercise for me.
#2 diet - i am really trying on this one. i have started eating breakfast and i think that it has made me fat. maybe it is having tasty food all the time that isn't exactly diatetic. well, being in a happy relationship makes me want to cook and bake (tonight it's BBQ pineapple chicken with peppers and cornbread...yum) and my condition makes it NECESSARY to eat all the damn time, it seems i guess i need more veggies and less carbs. and a nighttime snack. EVERY NIGHT!
#3.........- what else?
it just so happened that i did not wake up under my own power this morning. those of you that know me well probably know it was because of my diabetes. my blood sugar got to around 20 and i was in effect, unconscious and did not wake up. times like these call for an emercency glucagon shot, which, even though he only gave me 1/4 of the dosage and it woke me up in under 10 minutes, it still has the unfortunate side effect of making me quite sick to my stomach.
yuck. this has happened several times in the last 2 weeks, i didn't need the emergency shot every time, but still seriously low...it really scares me. it really scares him too, obviously. i am tired of scaring him like this, it's not fair. i love him very much! FYI: you can't be with me and have a phobia of needles, for very long, at least.
so...i ended up not going in to work. i don't want to sit there when i am feeling 100% and i damn sure don't want to sit there when i am feeling downright ill. it's just not worth it for my health. and i hate my job
but don't worry, i am gong to the doctor tomorrow. it is my least favorite thing on the planet to do, but i am going. taking care of myself has taken a backseat to everything else in my life, and i know that has to change.
writing about it is so easy, it makes so much sense...but doing it is another thing entirely.
give me some advice, people.
#1 exercise - the mental health issue over my body image is key for me. i simply detest how i look in clothing, and being complimented all the time doesn't seem to help.
satisfaction comes from within...i must exercise to realize my ideal self. or go crazy. so it's exercise for me.
#2 diet - i am really trying on this one. i have started eating breakfast and i think that it has made me fat. maybe it is having tasty food all the time that isn't exactly diatetic. well, being in a happy relationship makes me want to cook and bake (tonight it's BBQ pineapple chicken with peppers and cornbread...yum) and my condition makes it NECESSARY to eat all the damn time, it seems
i guess i need more veggies and less carbs. and a nighttime snack. EVERY NIGHT!
#3.........- what else?
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I'd say start with some light walking, and stretching. You could also go out to Wal-Mart and pick up a pair of light 2lb dumb-bells, to use with armlifts to build tone in your arms and upper body. Of course, you know I think you look amazing as you are now, but if you're dead set on working on your body, I suppose that you can only improve upon perfection
For diet, again, consult with your doctor because of your condition, but a balanced breakfast of cereal and juice, a light lunch, and a balanced dinner with meat, vegetable, and starch would be what I would recommend to anyone.
By the way in response to your question on my blog....It sparkles