violet

i haven't had a serious relationship in 5 years. I am starting to get worried. I am going to try everything within my power to stop being boy crazy and focus on more important things. But its so hard. I am still holding out on the no sex thing... since February...this has been much more difficult but empowering to not give in.

I was thinking y'know most relationships these days go in this order

Attraction
Sex
Commitment
Love

Why not go in this order:

Attraction
Love
Committment
Sex

???

I mean wouldn't it be better to have all the ingredients for love before you committ? and before you fuck? I mean isn't that the stuff that intimacy is created from? All i know is i am not getting laid until I can experience the kind of intimacy I deserve.

I mean it makes the hottest sex ever..... Think about it, most of the most romantic movies in the world, start with two people being attracted, falling in love, then professing that love and how much they want to be together then they fuck! Its amazing. Too bad life isn't like the movies...

Well my life is...... or has been, and will be again.